Lottiemoon

I am back!

2006-12-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

I did sign in many times before this post to write something, i swear i really did. But i lost the thoughts of continuing after a few sentences. Perhaps i need to swallow more determination-booster pills. Ha! i'm crazy.

Right! So the wedding was over since 29th Oct. It has been a month plus 6 days. Hubba and i planned the wedding for more than a year and in a day, it's over. Feelings for the day was a mixture of excitement, nervousness, and also happiness with some sadness. early make up, mum's words, grandparents hug, walking down the aisle, greeting my in-law for the first time, hearing hubba sing in front of crowds for once, sisterly love, aunts' support, dad's eye contact, bro and sis-in-law's smile, niece and nephew's questions and determination, friends' attendace, everything, i atill and will deeply remember all my life. 2 things that i still cant get over is, i never get to eat fullerton food except for the morning breakfast and their fruits. The purpose of holding the wedding there was really to try the 6* chef culinary skills! Chey, i wish and hope to get invited there. I heard the feedback was fabulous and this made me even more jealous! But hubba promised to dine in there probably on our 1st year anniversary. I hope it comes true. second thing is the wedding favours. Many said they werent even aware that the silver cocktail stirrer is a gift. Hiks hiks and i forgotten to remind everyone abt it. Hotel however said there wasnt any left over, but we are quite sure, there should be plenty.

Enjoyed the honeymoon to the fullest! we flew off the day after the wedding to taiwan. Touched down and we headed to Xi men ding. everyday routine will be shop and eat and sleep and shop and eat and sleep. Bought many many things. I was lucky, hubba didnt get sick and tired of accompanying me shopping, instead he was more excited and more energetic than me. Ha! we really splurge and buy like we are in need of so many items. Taiwan food is really good! Hot and tasteful and unique! Shopping was way way nicer than sg ones. I will definitely visit again.

I missed home lots during the first 2 weeks of the wedding. Not that now i dont miss, i still do but i am trying to adapt more to not be so clingy to home. But of course i'll miss mum and also my siblings and all the nonsense we did last time. I simply miss the family. Saying this does not mean i dislike my new addition family, but simply, i am learning to accept. And now i am doing good! i learn to be more appreciative. My in-laws are great ppl! Hubba is trying very hard to make me happy, givin in to me, adjusting my lifestyle. but there is some things, i hope hubba you understand! HOney is and already feel being part of the family, just that one will never forget or ignore or lose touch of one origin. i know you are a good hubba!

Oh ya! why the urge to blog?i am on night! I dont like shift work! so tiring! so draining. Hubba'll be working tomo! Jia you jia you jia you! Let's look forward to next year japan trip? I so wanna spend my christmas there! I wanna see snow, i wanna visit japan disneyland and i wanna have red nose! i wanna have the chance to wear wool 'earphone' and i wanna experience what you experience before and i wan your stories to be more real!

Watched Deck The Hall today! Christmas is so nice! This year, the family is planning a bbq! either at home or by the beach! Work is also celebrating. I am excited about my christmas present. Hubba is going to be my santa! hehe. In our room, hang 2 pair of christmas stocking! we are going to be each other secret santa and slot in present in the socks! Yoohoo! This is fun! Hmm.. i will start shopping within this few days, to prevent last min delay!

I am sleepy! I am thinking of napping! but it's illegal! So torturing!

Bye!

Confused, sad, unusual...

2006-09-12T18:43:00.000+08:00

So much to say. but i dont know what to say.

Lately have been feeling not being myself. Sianz.. I dont know why. whatever. It doesnt really matter whether i am feeling happy or not since work and home always require me feeling happy and contented. But i jus know there is some loose knots to tie. But which on to tie?

My first official night duty was fun but damn tiring i tell you. I met up with faezah on my first night to jus chill and chat abit. But we were both kinda eating faster than usual as we need to get back to work. haha. but it is damn nice the feeling. Having your buddy around. But i wish for the whole clang of the kuku gang.

For once, i am able to nap from 8 am to 5.30 pm in the day and wake up to eat and to get ready to work. Cool isn't it? The bad thing about nursing is they eat up your personal life. Alot of it. But so far i am enjoying what i am doing.

Tired.

2006-08-25T09:20:00.000+08:00

Mentally, physically, psychologically, emotionally, i am so exhausted. Work is getting more and more demanding, at some point i thought i can just roll myself on the floor and dont bother about having to think of what to do next for each patient that i look after. I know it's no big deal for some to look after 7 patients. But for me, sometimes i could hardly breathe. It does not help at all, cos i've been working 5 days of straight afternoon shifts before it's my off day tomo. And sunday i've to go to work and i am on morning then monday i'll be off again.

The only good thing i look forward to when i am on afternoon was and is hubba'll be fetching me after work. If not for the rides, i think sometimes i reach home only after 11pm. Bbbbbrrrrr! so scary even with the thoughts of it. The thing i hate about working afternoon is that, I dont have dinner. My dinner and lunch are combined and i have them at 3pm. By then after work i'll be hungry and i'll look for food. I have been eating supper every night and i think i need to be determine to stop. SO no more supper from now! Nothing!!

Wedding preparation are 70% ready. The only big headache now is the guest list. It's growing and growing each time we do the counting. It's so hard to calculate the exact number and on our side we are trying to confirm guests. But due to the limitation of seats, i'll have to sacrifice and make some changes to my list, hubba's list. Sian! it's so hard to go to the next step without confirmation!!

I am so looking forward to tomorrow cos my legend bed will be here and hubba's going for the first fitting of his suit! Yoohoo! Yippeee!!

I am so sleepy! But i got work to do! Bye peeps!

I miss the kuku gang! ANybody who is most free please go arrange on meeting up session???

I've lost touch of blogger!

2006-08-15T20:00:00.001+08:00

Haha! not that serious la huh? only fail to update on a regular basis. you know, no time no time! hehe. i've got lots of other things to do.

Working life has very much taken its plunge to another level. slowly i am getting used to the shift work. so far so good. Family and hubba has been very good in accommodating to my needs and my flexibilities. other than that, i am doing fine! hehe

Wedding preparation has proceeded to many other levels. We painted the whole room(4walls). We demolished the side drawers. We fixed up our chest of drawers. We bought our bed and pillows and bolsters. We cleaned up the whole room. We sent our cards to printer and waiting to collect in end of august. We settled on our so long photos. We got ourselves a professional photographer for the actual day. We contacted one justice of peace. And so little small details left! hehe

I feel sleepy now. Morning shift tomo! Blea!

I've lost touch of blogger!

2006-08-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

Haha! not that serious la huh? only fail to update on a regular basis. you know, no time no time! hehe. i've got lots of other things to do.

I feel sleepy now. Morning shift tomo! Blea!

JUST WANNA SAY.....

2006-08-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

A BIG HAPPY BDAY TO JENY, my youngest sis, the youngest in the lim's family, the baby of the family, the ever so fortunate one in the family, the slowly turning more and more stylish, the slowly indulging herself in pics of handsome boys,the one who always wrapped herself in comforter even after her alarm went off umpteen times, the one who never fails to soften mum and dad's heart, the one everyone dotes on and gives in to her, the one who gets most of the things she want, the one that is petty over small things when her period is near, the one who eat only selected kinda food only mum knows what, the one who cried when she got nightmare, the one, she is the one and only my youngest sister. LOVE YOU!! You are unique and that makes you special! hehe

May your upcoming future be great and things go smoothly for you! All the best in your studies, all the best in your love life. hehe. Hope your celebration this year is a great one.

Jus some reflections.

2006-08-01T10:08:00.000+08:00

1. I finally turn 21 this year.

2. I finally graduated with a dploma.

3. With the diploma, i finally can work.

4. I've a stable job. For at least 3 years.

5. I finally got my first wage. The feeling when receiving it was normal, but i was so looking forward to it.

6. I am getting married in less than 3 months.

7. I am moving house soon.

8. I still cant believe i am in working society. haha.

9. I miss all my kuku mates.

10. I miss alot of my sleeping time.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY NICHOLAS!

2006-07-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

Sorry i cant be there on your bbq. I wish i can but you know, nurse has to work on weekends as well. hehe. May you have a great wonderful year ahead. And may you got into the uni course you so wanted and that your NS life will be great. hehe.

It has been nong since i last updated. Words and lifestories seemed to run out a bit. I guess as much as i can, i chose to spend time with the family inclusive of hubba as well. Working as nurse definitely differ from any other jobs. The requirement, the shift-schedule, the-may-not-have-politics, the PR skills, all these has to blend together and look at it positively.

But somehow, i feel fortunate. In the sense, i get 2 days off(but i work longer hours). I've a bunch of young supportive understanding seniors. I've got a great environment for learning. I've got flexible bunch of sisters. I've got freedom and a-say in at least my schedule. And i've a very caring generous, wonderful, excellent family. With these, i am always very thankful, and i make sure i do a good job, i dont disappoint anyone.

Hubba has been superbly sweet. Sparing his sleeping time to have breakie with me at mac on sat morning and sending me to work with train and later going shopping on his own for a short 2 hours. SUnday, i was on morning, he woke up 6.20am to send me to work forgoing his ever so important beauty sleep. After work, i was picked up again, and hubba introduced me to this shop called classic cakes selling layer crepes cream cake but it was sold out. So we ended up indulging ourselves with waffles topped with choco icecream and warm brownie with a scoop of hazelnut haven. YUM!Life is so so candy sweet to have someone, doing something beyond his limit, without s single complain and still doing it more than willing. I love this boy!

I've start to feel like work is getting more and more challenging and meaningful. At least for now, i am coping kinda well. I hope i dont lose this pace, and i'll do my best. At least my aim is to clear my probation and hopefully in 3 months time i can work like one really professional nurse who can handle any challenges with a steady amount of skills, knowledges.

For now, i am going off to bed. I know it's early. But i need many sleep.Tata.

So i better do some updates!

2006-07-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

Right! Time has been very tight on me. It's more or less like a routine, work-sleep-work-sleep. Intervals are on bus journeys, eating, etc. Seemed so nothing interesting. That's right! I need to learn to make use of time after work besides going home. Cos i realized and slowly feeling that many things are left alone, undone, jus cos i feel that it's more right of me to head straight off to bed! Chey! Throw away that mindset!

Work has started to pile up and plunge into a quick-another level. I've been taking 4 cases since last week. Some might thing not big deal but with 6 pair of eyes staring looking out at you, who'll not tremble? Yesterday alone already took away 3/4 of my breath tank! But i learnt tonnes! (But somehow i prayed abit. I am not telling about what!)But at some points i felt extremely lousy for not being able to keep up to pace! Sigh. But i told myself to look at it positively, cos i am learning and i'll pick the skills and knowledges one day. Very soon of course.

I've declared to the sister at the ward that i'm walking down the aisle in oct. And i was really grateful that i'll be granted with a week annual leave and some dates off to at least prepare for the big day to come. Though it's not officially approved but based on what's promised about what can be done, i am more or less satisfied. Hehe.

As for hubba and me, we had many arguements over the weekends over some stuffs. Some serious stuffs and some silly stuffs. Somehow i'll still stick to my usual self, my original self, and who i am to him right from the start. (^__^)

Good night everyone!

P/S: Shopping this saturday with mum, sisters and aunts! I am so so excited! hehe. Mum'll foot the bill! Yoohoo!!

My life.

2006-07-10T19:49:00.000+08:00

Saturday i was at the national stadium with a whole lots of s'poreans. It was for the full dress rehearsal for the upcoming 41st singapore's birthday event. I had lots of fun laughing at the emcess' (Gurmit singh, Sheik haykel, Michele chia, And jean danker.) But i was melting in the blasting sun. I sat at the bench practically with only my clothings and a piece of newpaper hahha. And it was really HOT! i mean the weather.

Before i went to the Kallang stadium, i was at the zara sale.Kinda disappointed with the goods around. Bought nothing 'cept for a plain tee.

Sunday i was at the NUS. with the whole family to witness my second sis commencement. I could feel tears welling up when the flash a montage for the graduands and when the speaker of the day spoke about his life experiences and about how to look on the positive side of life. Since i was young, i always admire uni grads and thinking how difficult is it to achieve that level of education. And i seriously dare not think about having one of that cert myself. But i want it. I want to be in that level.

Work has already starting to be stressful. Though i have not officially go into the ward and do my responsibilities, but all the tests and checklists to fulfill definitely has already put a great impact on me. Tomo i'll be sitting for 3 tests. 1 theory, 2 practical.

Please pray that i'll clear them all and that my 3 years bond will end soon! :)

I miss holiday. I miss hubba. I miss freedom. I miss my passion.

I love HUbba!

2006-07-05T20:04:00.000+08:00

Ever since work started, there is no a single day hubba assured me with this sentence,"Dont worry i'll be here with you. And that's why i've decided not to go overseas to further my study. If i dont be here for you, what am i for?" And i usually tear secretly cos i've been having the character of hiding my true feeling.

This man is something. He never fail to make me feel so well-loved and time and time again when i disappoint him with my his-so-called-princessy attitude, he still shower me with all his attention.

Hubba was supposed to further his study after the wedding and i suggested to him to continue his education line overseas after seeing some of his friends already coming back with a degree.As much as i cant bear to leave him especially when we jus got married but i was rather stern on insisting that he go ahead and he has my support. My mental thought was to let him lead a normal life and not imposing too much restriction. cos i know overseas offer more courses and shorter time spend.

And each time when i mentioned abt this, i get scolded. He said i was being silly. He nagged more than me that i was crazy and that i am talking nonsense. ha!

He is not a romantic and also not a sweet mouth person. Each time when i begged for him to say something nice, i always get a sarcastic remarks. And that is him. That makes him different from other ppl.(That does not mean saying bad things all the time k hubba! Must learn to say the right thing at the right time!! hehe)

This past few days while waiting for my posting to be out, hubba has been so encouraging. Those little messages that he sent always made me smile no matter how sour i felt at that point of time. and those little whisper of encouragement i got in between breaks, in the morning before work starts and then before bedtime definitly helped alot in boosting my morale and sooth my nervousness.

Thank you hubba! I really feel so fortunate having you around. Without you i think i really go mad waiting and going thru the process of it. Those encouragement really means alot to me. Really appreciate it alot. You've been really sweet and really thank you. Muacks!

P/s: I collected my wedding bands and we both love it tonnes. Hehe!

P/p/s: I think i really got no time for the wedding preparation thing now! please help me! ehhe

P/p/p/s: I will change my wishlist soon! (^__^)

Officially start!

2006-07-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

So today is my so called first day at work. As expected it was dead boring with the-kept-repeating-phrase and worse, the many-times-viewed-videos of the structure and framewrok of the hospital. How overflooded can you imagine each of us are with all the same thing appearing and re-enact right in front of us for the 20th times. I can see faezah with pus oozing out from their nostrils and syasya from her ears! YUcks!

Up to date, i am made super exhausted waiting for the news about where am i going to work in for the next 1 year if not a good place and the next 3 years if it's a wonderful place. I was given the choice earlier on when holiday just started and till today when we approached the relevant 'authority' for answers, what we were replied was some cold and sarcastic remarks that i felt so not deserving. Foot! Jus cos you paid me for the past 3 years doesnt mean it's your right to throw me wherever and expect me to either take it or leave it knowing i'll have to take it.

I jus feel so unfair and what a bad experience even before i go back to the ward.But i was told and convinced that life is like this. Especially the working society. Never mind. whatever it is, i've chosen this path 3 years ago. No regret joining nursing though most probable i'll do another something i wanna do after the bond. For now, i'll do my best wherever i am, in whatever i do. At least out of the 3 years that i work, let's jus learn something good and meaningful out of it and make full use of the time spent. 3 years sounded long, but it's not very. I can see a dim dim light at the end of the road. Let this chance to be a proud time to be written in my working testimonial for the use of the upcoming future.

I jus hope that i get a good working environment, good working colleagues, challenges to groom me into a better person and good understanding supervisors.

still i definitely need to be updated with my posting before i can sleep and relax in peace. I hope it'll be a good piece of news tomo.

2 things, i hate suspension and i definitely hate biasness.

2 big big things, i love darling-sweetie-supportive-hubba and the big wonderful great family that i've got.

Hehe

2006-06-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

I am supposed to update this blog. But you know your mind is always drifting somewhere when you write.Here is some random update!

I attended my first ever proper graduation ceremony and collected my diplomas in the presence of all my beloved friends, good lecturers and 2 of my ever so supportive sisters and not forgetting the-always-there-for-me hubba!

I went back to indonesia since friday with mum and youngest sis and my eldest sis family. I ate tonnes, put on weights, visitted my grandparents, coming back with more memories of my home town and the place i grow up in. Not forgetting having many sessions of chitchatting with all my aunts. I definitely love this type of gathering. With this trip, i somehow feel more pleasurable with my holiday, my last one.

I Had my first chocolate fondue(after so many times of saying wanna go) with hubba on our 4th year anniversary. hehe.

I might be getting my PR status in less than 3 months time. I hope the application process dont take too long.

I am going to officially start work in one week time. I am so not ready and i wanna work outpatient.

BUsy busy weekend.

2006-06-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

Just got back from malaysia yesterday. Went there to attend hubba's uncle wedding. The place is called the KLANG!! hehehe.

Everything was great except for the bumpy ride on the bus. It was a holy god, 6-7 hours ride. The journey there took longer than expected but the journey back was smooth sailing. Managed to catch some sleep in the bus. The dinner was good! 'cept for suckling pig and the many dishes with pork. Got totally turn off i think i ate like very little that night. The next morning there were this breakfast trip planned, and it was bak kut teh. My god! i ended up eating vegetable pau. I cant stand the sight of it and the smell. I tried as much as i could to gobble down my vege pau so that the scent i smell was the pau. Aiyo!!!

The bride and groom were very busy and fully occupied. Though i dont know them very well, but i sent them my blessing. They looked quite a great couple. hehe. The dinner was a whooping 72 tables event. Imagine! Luckily we were seated quite in front. haha!Anyhow, everyone was talking about the next gathering and it is going to be my wedding! GOsh! I've got lots of things not yet done. Dont remind me of that. hehe

I've got some photos to show, things we do through out the bus ride and etc etc. Hehee.

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I flashed back abit of my behaviour just now while i am on the train back from hubba's house. I felt that i am such an easy-movie-influencer. This is a bad sign. haha! Though these symptoms usually last for awhile. hehe. Hmm for simple understand version. Check it out!

Like the current movie hit, X-men 3. After i watched that show, i came home with all the different patterns. I can pretend myself to be like Prof.X, the part when he sat on the wheelchair asking Jean to go back with him. Then after all the siblings watched them, we started to distribute the roles, who be what character and even rob in the nephew to be wolverine. haha! The we started our performance to our only guest, my Mummy! haha. And we started on the count of three. hahha! Then we'll have storm, wolverine, tie-a-knot(juggerknot??), cyclopes, and Prof X. hahhahhaha!

Then last time when there was this show COnstantine. (remember? remember? remember?) And he said to the person who was possessed as an introduction. "Hi, my name is John. John Constantine." and then he began his action. And for days, i said that phrase. See how easily influenced right?

Again yesterday i watched the cars. It was a nicey nicey cute show. And when the movie ended, i started going, "Stickers!!!" or "Ce-king(camera flashed sound), Ce-king!" or "You dont know who am i? I am lightning McQueen!!!" hahhahahha. It was fun but weird. hahah. I ended laughin recalling all these.

Then there is Harry potter and i kept chanting for days. Many many mroe. See how weird i can get.

Anyway, i'm going back to indo on thursday! I really miss my grandma and grandpa. I kept recalling all the old times and dreamt about them. Hiks hiks. I miss those time when i stayed with them and being treated like a princess. I must go back to see them!

P/S: I jus got all my wedding photos! i am so happy! hehe :)

2006-06-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

One of the shot!

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Hmm.. no comment. just for comparison!

2006-06-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

OUr shopping loots that day with sis and mum. That was the bag-day. Mum bought a business bag for bro, sis! and a guess handbag for the younger sis. Herself, a minitote bag. Nice! NOthing for me though cos i cant find anything! hehe. And the goods were damn heavy. Mum burn a pick pocket that day. Poor mummy! but best mum of all!

2006-06-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

The food! Half of them. Dinner has got more variety!

2006-06-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

2nd round of rice table for dinner!

2006-06-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

HUbba' new shoes, nike dunk collection, the arrival date of the shoes, 02.06.2006 and he bought it on the same day. While paying money, system checked that hubba is the first to buy and wear that pair. HUbba was brimming with joy stepping out of the shop! haha!

2006-06-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

In heeren toilet. Mum and youngest sis too embarrass to join haha! (I look fat and the skinny one hide behind! hMmpph!!)

2006-06-07T21:58:00.001+08:00

Shopping day! Waiting for the younger sis...

2006-06-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

Before bedtime

2006-06-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

The home shot of the 'charlie angels' and the bubble boy. hahhaha!

2006-06-07T21:55:00.002+08:00

We trying to ride the scooter just like him!

2006-06-07T21:55:00.001+08:00

Mavrix is so so cute!

2006-06-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

Can you believe he is 30 this year?

2006-06-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

More poses...

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Properly posing!

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the 5 of them!

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Richard style never change! ha!

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My hair look as if there is a breeze!

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Again!

2006-06-07T21:51:00.001+08:00

The after meal shot!

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I pose on my own! haha

2006-06-07T21:50:00.001+08:00

Another shot!

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The group 'cept for jacq the photographer!

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The other side of the table....

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Rice table with the class!

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Self-took in the car!

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NOt many ppl can make him smile this way, I am proud to be few of them! :)

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Random pic with hubba, at coffee bean, our tea snack! NOt that yummy though!

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Jacq's self-assume creativity! Yucks! all eaten food!

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I always look this retard when i refused to take photo!

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Stop being such a paparazi jacq!

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3 of them sitting in a row!

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3 of us sitting in a row!

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Another one!

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FISH & CO on my suprise bday! Thanks 'gals'!!

2006-06-07T21:42:00.001+08:00

While discussing where to be the next stop!

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Outside paragon pretending to be tourist!

Hubba

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I love hubba.

A nong nong post!!

2006-06-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

Have been nursing myself for the past 2-3 days. Having high fever from day 1 to 2 and then now only a bit of runny nose and itchy throat. BUt the amount of phelgm can fight with my saliva. Yucks! Since the doctor today more for review. Given VIT C tabs, and told to eat more fruits and vege. I wonder have i not been taking enough. I am more of a vegey person than meaty person. I'll just stick to my usual diet. hehe. Anyway, it's good to know that i've been fully recovered from the past week illness. More meds to consume. sianz. I am so not discipline think i'll just forget about taking them. Anyway no one care, so why bother right?

Enough said about nonsense above, went to chinatown today, supposedly to get the traditional chinese stuff. My god! so many things, in diff sizes and pattern. I think i'll have to bring mum down. Before they close and shift to somewhere else. Bought a few red packet cover(and bought wrongly) and some 'xi' stickers. Mum said she'll follow me the next round. She knows best!

I really wanted to blog about the photos. But it turns out all the photos look way too small. I tried to resize, stretch them using the arrows, change the pixels size, put in additional borders and etc, but the photos stay the same. HOw to see like this? aiyo! Can anyone help me? tell me if you are using photobucket and your pic was once small and you did something and it became of a viewable size yeah?

It's sickening that no matter how hard you tried, things always dont go the right way. At the end of the day, you thought if you chose certain things, certain solutions, you'll tend to have hiccups. Hmmm.. i dont know what i wanna say.

Do check back for the photos. I might need to consult hubba!

Good night everyone!

HUa hua hua

2006-06-06T12:48:00.000+08:00

Today being the evil day! I am not scared! so what it's 666!! BUt though the thought of it kinda give me the creepy eerie feeling. BUT i am going to fight of that!

FInally, finally, i said finally, photobucket on my account is working again. BUt not perfectly well. COs some of the pics link, they still refused to 'eat'. I got too impatient. I wanna blog.

but i cant yet!heehee i need to go bath! bye bye

P/S: I will blog tonight! behold!

I am so so so cant stand it~

2006-06-03T13:38:00.000+08:00

I've been very nice, trying to get all the pics uploaded onto photobucket but time and time again after i submitted all the photos link, the page just hung there. for a very very long time. Like the song goes, " Nong nong ago, nong nong ago"

It's testing my patience. Ive got photos from the bday to some random pics with hubba, to outing with the gangs that ended up celebrating my bday, to mother's day, to small gathering with the classmates and lastly shopping trips with mum and sisters and also not forgetting rice table with hubba!

FUck man.

I am going shopping now la.

I want lots of things.

Bye

The day before and yesterday.

2006-06-02T11:23:00.000+08:00

I've got lots to blog really!

Regarding the meet up with the peeps and shopping trips with mum and the siblings.

There'll be many photos to be uploaded.

BUt photobucket is not cooperating with my effort.

Think for those who wants the photo gotta wait for awhile.

So Sorry!

I need to bath now cos i am meeting my sweetie pie hubba!

Bye peeps!

I might treat hubba to The Rice Table for dinner later.

That poor boy need a bit of encouragement thru filling his stomach with good food!

Enjoy your weekend!!!

The future.

2006-05-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

NUH given us a choice to choose whether you wanna work outpatient or inpatient.

My first decision, inpatient. cos i thought i wanna learn more skills, blend into nursing, function in the wards like majority, wanting to have more contact with patient and stabilise my career.

Over the night i realized i haven be very honest with my thoughts. Cos my priority in life as this point of time. Focus on family and friends, having a proper lifestyle like anybody. So i chose outpatient. Luckily i managed to change to outpatient and i also noticed i was much happier after i told the person-in-charge i wanted outpatien nursing instead. This feeling shows my real and correct choice! hehe.

Everyone around me kept asking me to follow my feelings, make the right choice. I wouldnt know if i did make the right one till i got the posting. Pray hard for me. hehe

I hope Jacq got the job at NUH! hehe. Then we can become colleagues and she can quickly go and get married and buy a home in the west! hehe.

HUa hua hua!

2006-05-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

I have been feeling unwell since monday. No detail shall be mentioned here. But i checked with the doctor and certified that i am really fine. The family plus hubba had been very worried. Same for me. I tried to match the symptoms thru online medical web. And it was a relieved. Sigh! The cons of being a nurse. You know too much of medical symptoms and you tends to think of the worse scenario. Which can be very depressing haha. There's when the doctor come in, to confirm the whole thing. Hehe. I better watch my health closely and not take it for granted. Like the eyes, the abdomen pain, the gastric pain, The chest pain and now this.

Sunday was spent helping mum to tie 'bak chang', the traditional glutionous rice dumpling, the 'in' thing for now. Mum spent alot of time teaching me and i really enjoyed playing around with the ingredients, folding the leaf and tieing them into the shape. I think from this year onwards, every year this time, this event shall be a family gathering thing. hehe. We tied all in all 175 pieces, which is hell alot! hehe. Distributed to a few close neighbour, my aunt, hubba, my sis bf, my sister-in-law family, and some at home for praying. I like but it's fattening and very bloating!

Daddy and mummy has been very pampering. But somehow, i dont know. TO anyone who always give in to me, i often feel bad about it. There was this incident when i felt extremely bad having ppl giving in to my needs and demands, that i feel bad for a few days irritating hubba and we got into a huge arguement. In the end, i got a sunflower bouquet the next day. Hehe. See how sweet everyone around me is. Mummy and daddy wanted and needed to buy me a set of jewellery for the wedding as we are a typical teochew family. And in the straits was an advertisement on a set of solitaire cut jewellery, and i simply said, "why dont you all get me these?" and they just agreed asking me to go chooose the right size and still thinking of getting me an additional bracelet. Aiyo! though i am not a accesories person but the immediate head-nods from them really make me feel so pampered. dad wanted to buy me a canopy bed when i was crazy over it the other time. But hubba's room is way too small to fit that in so i forgo the idea. hehe. How nice can life gets. hmm.. it sets me thinking sometimes, maybe i've been having the best of everything. i wish i never took advantage of these ppl and showed my appreciations to these ppl. I love my family, my friends.Everyone just want me to be happy.

Tomo is the gathering for NR 0330. though not the whole group but at least half of it? i am excited. and good thing is cos we are meeting early. So not that bad. hehe. I wanna be home early tomo cos i wanna watch tv!

Shopping date with mum, and the sisters. I am also looking forward to that. Thursday is the day. Great Singapore Sale is kinda misleading. 10% discount is not really a sale. It sounds like for the sake of sale kinda way to cheat ppl to spend. But Hell! ZARA is not even having discount. I am so in love with their clothes, especially their basic collection. I wanna buy and buy and buy.Mum said i can cos i need many new set of clothes for the wedding but can i stand just buying but not wearing. Hmm...

I need to go the loo. Bye peeps.Good night!

I love the Kuku gang!

2006-05-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of posts. But i guess not much ppl are reading this as well. Who cares? I just wanna blog for myself, for those interested hehe. Sounds rather thickskin but life is that. You've to be kinda self-centered at times. I guess. hehe. Enough of rattling abt not-so-important and unhappy stuff.

(Though i am kinda tire now, but i am determine i must blog all these!!!^_^)

Today have been a very very happy day for me. I met up with the gang, not so complete though hehe. The initial plan was to meet up for dinner. but you know girls when they got holiday and lack of love ones company they complaint about boredom. So jacq, faezah and me met up early in the morning as early as 11am. hehe.

Lunch was at lucky plaza ayam ria. My god! the food is really nothing unusual but somehow it just tasted very yummy. Maybe cos i originated from there and the taste buds had been cultured and tailored to the taste of indo food of course. so hubba!! dont deprive me from that yeah? hehe. Had the usual menu, ayam penyet. sounds funny but taste yummy! hehe. faezah was not very keen on nasi kinda food so she had the bakso bee hoon soup which i think also taste very yummy. Plenty of balls for her to pick till she got tired chewing them, she gave up in the end haha.

Next stop was paragon metro cos girls being girly wanted to shop for some cosmetics goods! to be exact faezah wanna try out the ethusais products. the salesgirl was good as faezah was full of questions and loooked kinda doubting hehe so she supplied her with their sample. so nice and understanding. no hard sell, no force buy. This is one of the business and PR skills alot of palces are lacking of. Hmmmm. And one advice, shu uemura sales girl sucks big time. We asked,"...so loose wont clog pores??" She replied,"eerrmmm, we've some cleanser to unclog the pores of course" like what the.............The products are not supposed to do that in the first place. aiyo!what a kuku reaction!!

Then richard came to join us soon after at about 1+pm. And as i suggested to go KTV, everyone seems to agree! haha. Faezah was kinda reluctant but didnt oobject. Jacq looked bored with the idea but she is too tired to shop around for 5 hours. hehe. Richard is forever anything. ehhe. So off we go to heeren and rot awhile before going to cineleisure KTV for their 2-6 students promotion. Faezah and me forgot our student card so we;ve to pay 9 bucks for the session and jacq they all 7 bucks. The bills was split among 4 of us and each of us paid 12 bucks for the few hours entertainment. it was fun! hehe.

Then dinner was at fish and co. syasya and brenda could only make it for dinner and so we met up with them after our singing session. ehehe. Wheelock place is not that boring after all. hehe. We ordered seafood platter and some desserts and shared among everybody. dinner was the peeps treat i was really grateful! thank you so much!

Then next we walked around at kino while i was bluffed that jacq and faezah went to the loo. I was aware and noticed like they were trying to hide around. and when i asked syasya where are they after a waling around and still never see them. the syasya taht never lied, actually told me a white lie without blinking her eyes. My god! haha. it was all for my bday present. hehe i was really touched. The gang got me a box of sweets and titbits. With that i am already very happy and satisfied but they got me takashimaya vouchers after i visited the teller.

i really dont know how to show my appreciation as much, i can only keep saying thank you. I just want you guys to know, i am relly thankful to have a bunch of friends like you guys. NOt just friends, but real good close buddies that i can count on, tat never failed to make my day each time we met and never fail to bring me happiness. Even if it's not for any bday celebration, each outing with you guys can put on the smile on my face for days. And with this, i really hope to meet up more often, even if work is going to occupy half of our life. In time to come, i hope we can all grow old together, where our kids can be each other playmates, where the woman can share their beauty tips and shopping trips(if richard's wife is good maybe we can consider asking her along? haha) and sharing loving tips about our husbands or wifes. hehe.

Not to worry, i'll make full use of the voucher and i'll use it to buy bedsheet, something you guys wanted to buy for me in the first place. hehe.Thank you so much peeps, you guys have been a great bunch. though we were often referred to as the kuku gang but we were definitely not kuku hehe. Words cant say many things. I'm jus truly and sincerely thankful. And i felt really bad making you guys spending such a large amt of money. Thank you so much for everything!!!

P/S:To hafiz, as much as we want you to be there as well but you cant, we hope to see you on the next dinner or lunch trip?? hehe.

Good nigth everyone. I am tired and sleepy. My face is numb from all the laughing and singing and eating. hehe

It's a saturday morning!

2006-05-20T11:21:00.000+08:00

Though not very early in the morning hehehe. Has been getting insufficient sleep but last night was great. insufficient in the sense like too many things in mind to do. The wedding is counting down to 5 more months. but yet hubba and me is still blur in where to start and pick up things that we've yet to do. aiyo! kinda worrying. but put that aside! hehe cos on sunday i'm going to select my photos. I hope all the photos turn out good but that means more money spent. hehe. All girls wanna have nice nice photos of them in wedding gown and stuff right? cos it's realy once in a lifetime hehe.

List of things not yet done and must be done! haha:

1.Dismantle the side cupboard.

2.Hunt for the necessary furni; chest drawer, side table, maybe an arm chair, lamps, bed frame, mattress and standing mirror. so far in my list!

3.Buy all the traditional needs.

4.Go shopping with mum and the siblings.

5.Do up my side invitation list.

6.Look into the banquet menu.

7.Brainstorm of idea of how to do the invitation card.Hubba's job!ha!

8.Buy and buy and buy more things.

The list goes on and on. ha! I really hope i can do all the things before i start work. Once work start i'll so occupied with all the programme, induction period, induction checklist, all the skills upgrading courses and many many more. and i think by then i'll be so so busy my brain mght burst! and i dont wish for hubba to settle of the things. And i know and i can forsee, a person that's stressful will not be able to function and this will lead to more more arguemment and quarrel. I dont wish for that! so i must get my ass moving! hehe.

Actually while planning for wedding on our own has been rather tiring though most of the time the plan turns out fine. in the midst, there were many occassions were ideas dont clique and both of us argued and pulled long face. And the plan put to stop for awhile. I just wanna have lesser of this occassions. hehe. cos it's definitely not healthy. especially at this point of time.

I know i shouldnt mention this. But my Bday is round the corner. Thanks to lek yhee and xinyi for the prsent. It's really come in handy especially maybe when marcus bully me then i'll use that to suffocate him haha! thanks alot really. you gusy have been real thoughtful. hehe. the kuku gang also not bad. has been buggin me abt my ideal pressies. haven think yet la. the family also. planning this and that. hehhe. i am touched. I know all ppl love me! hehe.

now i am going to eat my mum's teo chew porridge. while waiting for hubba's to get up and dont know go whre. Sg is so small. i am running out of idea. sianz..

I feel wobbly!!! haha!

2006-05-18T11:25:00.000+08:00

TOo much to write.. Dont know where to start!

BYe

The wedding shoot.

2006-05-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

There were about 50 over random shoots taken on that day. none of it was exactly like wedding album style. Just some real gotcha kind though i was aware hehe. Jus for a peep and taste. I dont look that good hehe. so shy to put up lots. The photos are in sequences. hehhe.

This one was the start of the day. First attempt of trying out the make up i should say.

This shoot was the korea custome that the studio provided. Hubba was in the same set and pink in colour. NOt very nice to put up hehe. cos hubba was so shy and looked confused in it! haha! but girls love pink aint they? haha

this was the traditional chinese custome that chinese wore on their wedding day. It was a last minute decision. I thought i looked old in it but the rest said i looked alright! But still i decided not to show my face!! ha!

I was getting ready for my first gown shoot! It was the evening gown. It's the hair do and abit of the gown. The full thing shall remain a suprise till the wedding day? Or else it'll be quite boring?? hehe

A changed of the hair do and touching up of my make up. I alreaady changed to my wedding gown! Hehe. Though abit exaggerating with the huge diamond necklace hehe.

Didnt have the chance to snap my outdoor gown. It's quite simple. hehe and kinda close to the body. And revealing as well.

Alright! The rest of the pic shall be posted up mayabe after the wedding??? hehe. GOod night everyone.

Flash back and The Wedding Shoot.

2006-05-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

The week is coming to an end soon. And this week, i did many many things. Many things happened. I nearly couldnt catch up with time. Hehe.

Monday hubba was on leave. We had an appointment to final fit our wedding outfits with the studio. Mine was great but hubba's suits were not up to expectation. More of like we expected it to be lower than expectation as way before we were deciding whether to buy on our own or not. So we came to a conclusion as to give the available and supplied ones a try before buying. And in the end we chose to use the studio ones for photo shoot and maybe to make or buy on our own for the actual.

Tuesday was the day where i went to collect my uniform and did my medical checkup. Nothing much on that day jus taht after the checkup, i met up with jacq and we went to jurong point where i did my bad experienced manicure and pedicure. it was so painful and torturing. Felt very bad cos jacq has to wait outside for me and soon after she left with her bf. Hubba came to find me at jp as well and he came at the time just nice to foot the bill. ahha! poor Boy! he thought i arranged such a time. I AM NOT THAT MEAN AND GIAO OKAY???? Haha!!

Wednesday was a gathering for the kuku gang. At least it was for me, syasya, jacq, faezah and fish. Brenda and richard didnt make it. One didnt reply to the plan and the other need to work. The time spent was great a though short. We chatted our lungs out and enjoy each other company. Lunch and dinner was superb and sinful. My diet plan for that day was definitely ruined. ha! But i was happy of course. The ramen restaurant served gigantic mineral water and ayam penyek was so FANTASTIC! i gobbled down the chicken in split seconds. haha. Gado gado was great too. I so miss indonesia. I hope my dad allow the family to go back in the upcoming June. (*_^)

Wednesday was also left for me to do some last minute shopping. NOt exactly last minute. but it gave me permission to buy things haha. Managed to grab hubba's belt from braun buffel and my very very important outdoor heels from aldo. i love shopping and shopping thta can buy things.

Thursday was a very memorable day for me. I took my wedding photo shoot yesterday. Though i was all nervous and excited even the night before, i was really grateful to be able to complete the shots and feeling really great and also feeling pretty. ^_^The whole process was tiring but it was real worth it. It's definitely the experience of the whole lifetime and both hubba and me enjoyed the every moment. I wanna thank hubba's mum for being with us, looking into every needs and helping us, feeding us and accompanying us. I wanna to thank my best mate(i cant mention name but you know who you are) for being there, sacrificing her sleeping time and helping around with everything she can and constantly giving the moral support smile. I wanna thank my mum, though i knew she badly wanna be there, but her worries when she thought it would rain and her constant reminders for me, i just knew she is there for me, waiting to hear from me. I wanna thank the make up artist who transform me into a totally different person with her superb skills. And also her devotion to her job as to make every bride happy and beautiful. I was real touched bby her effort to find me a last minute outdoor gown and her instruction to the tailor to amend the gown into my size as quick as possible. I wanna thank the super professional photographer who really spend time finding out my good and bad angles and never got piss with my constant blinking of eyes. He definitely can capture both my and hubba so naturally, we were so relax and njoy his every bit piece of jokes and advices. I wanna thank my gown designer who managed to draw and make my dream gown no longer a dream. I really feel like a princess and yet simple. I wanna thank my kuku gang clique who kept reminding my about the smile that i've where my 2 eyes will be so small you thought they were just 2 black lines. Each and every advices were definitely remembered and prevented! ha! I also wanna thank my younger sister who smsed me to wish me luck and my elder sisters who though far away from me but constantly relieving my nervousness. Not forgetting hubba, the smiles on your face is such a relieved and you knew best when i needed it most. The soft whisper on my ear when you were near me was very encouraging and it definitely putting more wider smile onto my face. The looks you gave were so assuring, i knew it'll over soon and you'll joined me in the shoot soon. Life is so wonderful with all these ppl around.

Korean costume was our first outfit followed by the traditional outfit. Both sets looked good on us and it's the part where we were warming up and getting to know the photographer. hehe. We started of with digital cam where the photographer showed us the taken ones and explained which side of face is best and which pose suits better and etc etc. And next he switched to use the old types one. I began to feel abit nervous after he told us this will be the original ones. Soon, starting from that moment, he used digital cam. Meaning i can viewed the photos taken and be assured it's nice. He uploaded each different sets into the comp and it's not so bad after all. Evening gown was the third outfit and the wedding gown for the fourth. The make up artist was asked to blow bubbles to create some kinda effect and it was fun! HUbba shoe was dirtied by the soapy solution and he was so heart pain haha. luckily i was sitting away from that or else it'll be my gown which kena. haha.

Out door shoot was abit more tiring cos the whole time we were rushing from one location to another. At first it was a bit of rain and our first stop was fullerton. The scene was so embarrassing having so many ppl staring at me posing. aiyo! sorry hubba! the photos will turn out to be good!!! no worries! The we went to the room and shot a bit. then off we go to take fullerton outdoor. before that i changed to the just-chosen outdoor gown and i felt so obscene in it cos i thought i exposed too much. just hope that the veil can cover my fatty upper body.

Sentosa was the next stop. We took photos at the big tree and got bitten my mosquitoes. Only a few shoot were taken and next was the pond bridge. Inside the pond there were small fishes and i nearly freak out when i was told to put my feet in it. Ha! but it was fun. Then we went to tanjong beach and met many couples there. And Hubba CARRIED me!! haha And he also PIGGY BACK me! army training really played a big part haha. The photographer was saying to give me our best natural expression. I believed hubba face will be all cramp up cos i am heavier than him. Poor boy! He was all sweating but everyone enjoyed it right? We wanted to capture the sunset. But it was raining before so sun wasnt very glaring. hehe. But i was okay. cos sunset is kinda cliche.

HAd late dinner at maxwell market after i dropped all the accessories.The time then was about 7.30 and the studio was full of crowd. Aiyo! We were both hungry and we ate like a pig. Maybe i was like a pig but hubba was cool and slow on food! With the make up on i actually walked around and order my own food. Who cares if i look like one opera or drama actress. ahha! i nearly forgotten about my make up till hubba's mum reminding me.

The day ended with hubba's dad speeding home!!! I can recall lying down on bed watching tv till 10, switching it off and off i flew to la la land!!!!

The day was full of memories and i would never forget them!!! Who says photo shooting is stressful and scary? NO such thing. Maybe kinda embarrasing at outdoor but the whole thing was fun fun fun!!!

I am sleepy! I am tired. I need a good rest now!!! Good night everyone.

P/S: I did took some photos but i dont know whether i shall put up. It shall be remain a suprise? Haha! lazy to blog the photo. other day maybe. bye!!

Relieved! BUt it marks the start.

2006-05-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

SO i kinda halt my blogging since hubba got back from taiwan. How time flies, first was when hubba said he'll be posted to taiwan for 3 weeks and now he is back and been around for a week+. But of course i love having him around. hehe.

Attachment is officially over on friday. I was excited during the de-brief. BUt we were briefed on the upcoming courses on schedule. SIgh! Then i realized, it's only the start of my 3 years bond. The china girls have got a 6 years bond. I think i'll cry counting down. I used to count for every attachment that i've. Like '20 more days to go, 19 more days to go and so on'. And i was telling my family and hubba. I can start counting like 365 more days to go to 2 more years and stuff like that. How silly. hehe.

Been very occupied in getting ready for my photo shoot this coming thursday. My stuff are 80% ready. But hubba still got lots to buy. That boy is such a perfectionist. And of course i've to tolerate and be patient. I am lucky that i've a husband who cares as much as i do. cos from what i know, guys usually dont care. So we have been scouting around for the right shoes, ties, belt, shirts, cravats, pants and of course, suit. But i love shopping so no complains!! ^_^

I've dyed my hair. I only need to get my nails done on wed, my outdoor slipper, my seamless lingeries. that's about it.

MOST IMPORTANTLY,i need to LOSE WEIGHT!!! Arrghhh.. it's soo frustrating to be fat. Hmmph!!

HUbba hubba!!

2006-04-26T19:04:00.000+08:00

I've never really talk about hubba in detail before. But somehow whenever i thought i wanna praise him here, i again have a second thoughts about it cos i simply dont find the need as long as i know that he is a great man. But since many ppl knows about my upcoming wedding, they've been asking me whether dont i think i am too young to be tied down or i am too young to start a family.

I've my reasons to believe he is the right man for me. And i know even though i am going to have a difference in status, things will still be the same. What tied down or too young it's all the standard and influence set by the norms of the society. So long i've the blessing of my families(as in all big family), friends and love ones. I am happy!

I'll be working night tomo. I dont know how i am going to pull thru. Having cultivated the habit of sleeping at 10 pm everyday. I'll have to drink tea and do all sorts to stay awake. Maybe i'll inflict pain on myself hehe.

I am so nervous!!!!!!! Result will be released tomo. Hmm.. Pray hard for me. I just need to clear all papers. No high expectations! heehee.

I am so so so so sleepy. But i am excited. Cos hubba is coming back tonight!!!!! Yes it's tonight! hhehe.

How contradicting i can get. nervous yet excited. I feel like a mixer!! ha!bye everyone. i am going to hubba house and fetch him at the airport!hehe

SO SO SO WEIRD!!

2006-04-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

Since evening today i've been rolling my eyes, frowning and stucking my 2 eyebrow together. Cos i am so irritated over some matter. My mum and sisters commented that i am TOO petty. But i seriously think i am not and have the right to be irritated. I wont show it and hopefully it will supress down. BUt i am really very greatly affected by it. Cos i dont understand why is it like that. Bah! bah! BAH! BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like screaming. And i feel like crying... How emotional. Life is like a rollercoaster.

Weekends will be perfect without the above. I feel moody to continue blogging on. but it was definitely very heartwarming to meet up with jacq. Too bad the other guys cant make it.

I want hubba to faster faster come back. I want him to understand me and know what happen. I hope he wont blame me for feeling which ever way. I know he wont.

Good nigth everyone. I hope i can sleep tonight without thinking of anything.

It's saturday!!!!

2006-04-22T10:51:00.000+08:00

Few things to be happy about:

1. I am touched by syasya and faezah. They pointed out many things to me and made me realized thru that few sentences that i should i continue looking at the positive side. I really feel so happy whenever i see them outside the ward, i just miss working with you guys! Thank you for being such a nice breeds though we are far away.

2. Work is ending soon, in 2 weeks time and 8 days time. Though i am not sure whether will i come back to this ward again, hopefully i really have nice good staff to work with.

3. HUbba is coming back on wednesday! i am dying waiting for him. 3 whole weeks. phew! it's going to be over soon!!

4. I am going for my trail make up and finally got look at my final design of my evening gown. But this is something mroe nervous. i scared i look too demonic in make up especailly with the pluck eye brow.

5. I bought many things last week and yesterday i bought a short dress from Daniel Yan suitable for out door shoot and a shirt for hubba from island shop for outdoor shoot as well and it cost me quite a bomb. In the end, i am not able to save this month! hehe I realized the least time you have for shopping during the weekdays will cause one to buy more on weekends and therefore i buy tonnes on last weekends and and this weekends. Haha! If hubba is around, think he is going to roll his eyes many many times. And now i am eyeing at one slippers from Tangs and it costs me 99 bucks. but super nice. and i am hesitating. hiks hiks. 99 bucks and step on the floor not quite worth it. but its nice. how should i say, it's just nice.

6. The Lim's family is discussing on the business proposal.hehe no details but it's on the process.

7. Everyone love me. Everyone seems to give in to my needs. I mean the family. hehe. I feel so fortunate. hehe. They are always on my side. And of course, i love them!

I am bored. like how hubba is feeling!

It has been long..

2006-04-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

It has been long since i rolled my eyes whenever i walked pass somebody. It has been long since i last hated one person to the extent i wish she dont exist in my life. I always try to look at things in different perspective. But there is always a limit to tolerance level. And fuck her for testing my limit. Go back and pray to your god that my curses dont kena you! Cos i cursed on you many times.

Yesterday i was told that the Assistant Director of Nursing wanted the onco-to-be nurses to take at least 6 patients at the end of 6 weeks. Of course to me it's a great lot of different from the tasks i am handling currently. I took care of 3 patients since Day 1 i entered the ward. I sounded damn useless whining at having to look after 6 patients. But that's not the case.

THIS Fucking girl actually went up to the ward sister and said the ADON said it's a must for us to take 6 cases. ANd so, i let it be. Behind my back she told another attachment mate that i'll be the one so called changing preceptor and i was like, 'Ask her to go la. For what i wanna carry her burden when she want it herself?' And i put that behind my brain and never thought about it.

Till just now before going home. The sister told me to follow another staff who will precept me. The fucking girl and another attachment mate will stick to the same and they'll work in the same cubicle. To me a change in a new environment is a big fuck matter. It's hard to cope working with different ppl. And i've to re-learn all the cases. It may sound a good learning experience and i sounded petty. But fuck her, she should have just say she wanna handle more patients. Why must she pull everyone into trouble??? And why must it be me?? You should see her face, she was damn proud and i thought she deserve a punch in the nose. She is always complaining that she is very free la, what not la! I've never meet this type of problem for my whole 3 years worth of attachment. And i believe i'm not a lousy attachment mates to work with. and obviously she is the one with attitude problem. or else, there wont be more than just me who hate her.

She is damn pussy licker. She behave as though she work in nursing for 10 years. she always assume she knows everything. she always poke her nose into other ppl's matter. she intrude into anybody's space. but of course thru all this she earn the favour of all the senior staffs. And i fucking HATE HER!!!!!!!!

2 more weeks to go before i'll finish my attachment. I was told the chance to work in this ward is not so high as the staffing is high. But heck! wherever i am, i wish i've a wonderful environment with good staffs and ward sister to work in after i come back form PRCP. And of course no pussy licker. No ultra hard working ass, no back staber. No competition, no PR problems.

I've many many stories to tell. I need hubba!!! I want hubba!!! hiks hiks.

I cant stand!!!

2006-04-19T16:34:00.000+08:00

I need to sit. Ha! Lame!

This few weeks i reflected alot on working life. One thing very important for sure is your working collagues. Good if one have good working mates. But it's like hell when your mates is one stuck up ass, bootlicker, extra confident, super 'hardworking', pretentious, KPO, etc etc. All this adjectives seem to be a good point. But it's getting on my nerves. I am facing it now.

The preceptor has been very obvious on her favourism. She favour the above mentioned. And i have been pulling a long black face, keeping very quiet, try to figure things out myself on alot of occasion. Cos i cant stand the differentiation of facial expression that i've faced. My checklist is practically all filled with no signature. No one mention about my mid-way clinical evaluation and i've not achieve half of my objectives. I dont blame her. Cos if only bootlicker can win her knowledge, i'll stand aside. Cos it's jus so not me, to go up and stuck up to her, behaving super intimate when i know i am in the ward for business. Let me clear this attachment and pass my PRCP, get my licence then we'll talk about intimate issues. i hate this feeling.

It has been quite sometimes since i really dislike someone that i show the person right in the face. It sound childish but it all gets to unbearable i hope there is a hole at the balcony that i can push her down any moment i like so that i dont get to see her and she needs time to climb up. How i miss and look forward to a nice working environment where everyone is equal, learning at the same speed and no competition. Like for what wanna compete? It's like so typical kinda kiasu SGans.

HUbba is going to be back very soon. I have many things to share. And i need his ears. Poor boy, though living few days kinda good life, but now he is camping out field and will be sleeping in padi field for 2 nights. He sure lose weight and look weird. Cos whenever we didnt for few days sure there'll be some changes. The 46 months anniversary on monday was spent far apart. Anf it's the first time.but never mind With things to do and to occupy ourselves, time seems to pass faster. 6 more days to go, and i am so looking forward to it. HUbba please ask the pilot to drive faster yeah? hehe.

I am going to nap. 2 more morning to go before i am going to have my weekends break again. Friday, shopping. Saturday, trial make up. Good night everyone.

It's back to normal!

2006-04-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

The template is back to normal. I feel so clever over again! heheh. NOw i can blog all the photos. hehe. It's my first time doing photo blogging. Though nothing to show off cos tonnes of ppl know how to do it, but for a person like me, super com blur, really a great achievement. hehe.

The Lim mummy brought 3 of her daughters(I still got one eldest sister but she is at home looking after her kids)on a shopping spheres. Though mum was mumbling all the way, but i can tell she's really happy. which mum wont be happy to see her kids happy? And we really burn her pocket big time. haha! but mum always share our clothes, so it's like buying for herself. hehe. This is something all of us tell mum whenever we wanna buy something, like in the way, we try to make it sound as though we buy it for her advantage. hehe.

The pile of GOODS!!!

My heels. Nothing expensive but it shall remain to be a suprise. Till perhaps after photo-taking?

The accessories!!!

The very elegant shawl though looks yellowish cos taken with my lousy cam phone. CHey time to change!

My youngest slipper! It's not birkenstock but it's nice! Everyone agree she should buy it!

The tops!

The baby doll kinda top!

Another top!

I quite like this top! Abit blur!

2 of the same skirts but different colour.

The 2 skirts my youngest sis, die die also must buy!

It's so my second sis!

One of the dress!This dress is nice! but it look so awful here.Ha!

Another dress!

This 2 tops is so expensive! And my youngest sis die die also must buy!

A very cute top!

Another top!

The 2 pants!

The jeans! It looks like a jacket cos i folded the length!

The another 2 pants!

2 of my youngest sis t-shirt!

T-shirts!

T-shirts again!It's green now.

The photo quality is not very good. I really enjoyed myself alot. hehe. I cant wait for the next shopping date i have with mum and the siblings! And dinner was good also. I had siam kitchen and really very yummy! hehe.

I miss hubba! I miss hubba! I MISS HUBBA!

P/s: I am not sure if this photo post can work.I hope it'll! cos i cant see it now, i merely type and code! hehe bye everyone. Shopping is indeed my antidotes! Mum said she'll buy me 2 more pairs of the slippers that i am eyeing for part of the wedding stuff! hehe.

P/p/s:

The room colour! one side only! hehe

P/p/p/s:

This is what hubba did to my leg while painting.

P/p/p/p/s:

A random photo of me and en en(my cousin).

P/p/p/p/p/s:

The new esprit bag i bought. hehe.

P/p/p/p/p/p/s:

Greedy hubba slurping sticky chewy choco.

Good night!

It is supposed to be a photo-blog.

2006-04-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

The title was supposed to be 'It's going to be a photo-blog'. But after i tried to upload an url for some flash thingy, the lay out of the template become totally wrong. i took tonnes of photo today. and i felt so clever but now i felt so frustrated!

Anyway shopping spheres today with mum and the 2 sisters was super super great. In total, we bought 2 dresses, 4 t-shirts, 1 slippers, i heels, some accesories, 1 shawl, 5 short skirts, 9 tops, 5 bottoms/pants. How amazing!! haha. My hand nearly break when i carry all of them. Photos tomo. When blogger respond to me.

It's going to be a longer weekends!

2006-04-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

Heehe.. so it's finally thursday! here come my more-by-a-day weekends hehhe. i am so happy cos i can rest!

Supposed to meet aunt at city hall at 4. But she called last minute and said she'll be late to fetch en en cos he is dismiss early today after com class. SO i said it's okie. and there goes my shopping chance. Took a train back and climbing the overhead bridge is so duper tiring!

Work is quite free today. MAybe i should say, i am more familiar now. The preceptor asked whether are we ready to accept the role as a Staff nurse? I said no. but come to think of it, i should say yes. not cos i am boastful or too confident. cos when you said no, it sure going to be a more slower learning process. Never mind! I know where i stand. Hmm.. learn, learn, LEARN! *_*

I am missing hubba tonnes! it's like how many years i didnt see him. That boy'll be back in 14 days! He promised to bring back lots of pressies. i cant wait! hehee. Take care! See ya soon.

I bought myself an esprit bag last weekend. ANd it has then since be in the cupboard shelf. HA! i am so so so so dont know how to save money. But i consulted so many ppl and all said i should buy. They include my mum, my youngest sis, my second sis, hubba, hubba's mum. Alot right? hehe

Shopping spheres with mum and the sisters tomo! We are going to buy lots of things again i guess. i love this type of regular shopping trips with them. Yoohoo!

It's wednesday!

2006-04-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

The week is going to end cos friday is public holiday! and i am so super excited okie! hehhe. I cant wait, i need a break, at least to nourish my sleep and of course let my poor legs have a break! hehe.

Work today is tiring and kinda slowly coping. Still very blur and not very sure about sequence of like morning routine or afternoon routine. hmm.. this prove that there's more for me to learn. Was having back to back shift so after passing report today, i was just stoning. then the preceptor came and supervised my dilution and she was pissed cos i forgot the amt to dilute. different ppl teaches different things. so i really dont know which to follow. anyway, all was well and we were supposed to have our feedback session. but it was cancel! but the preceptor did ask me about my weak point and how i fare myself. She pointed out that i was too task-oriented. too focus doing a single task and not aware of the surrounding. Hmmm this skill sound to tough to master. But i'll improve on that. Jus wanna and must to look at nursing from a positive view. Cos with that then i think one wil perform better. I am lucky to have experts to teach and guide me all the time. So i mustnt disappoint anyone especially myself.

Was very irritated with hubba yesterday. And vent all my stress and frustration on him. I dislike being constantly reminded on the same issue and he was so worried and want me to do it. Hmm.. there seems to be a clash in character. I hope that is complementing each other and not something where we'll always quarrel about heheh..

i am going to nap! take care everyone!

Cheerios!!

2006-04-10T17:52:00.000+08:00

Stepping into the 3rd week of attachment was quite relieved. though i know i still have a long way to go, but still, i know i'll pull thru this posting. FInal posting! I still got a lot to learn and catch up and adapt. But i believe i am slowly picking up. The reason for me to be so relieved is cos, the longest attachment we did through out the 3 years course was 1 full month. and so, this week is like the start of the month. hehe. Positive mindset right? hehhe

COunting down to seeing hubba, i have got 16 more days to go. This period is tough especially when i need him lots. But it also give me more chance to spend more time with the family, something i haven been doing for a long time. That's why, spending the whole of sunday at home was a great feeling. ANd good thing is, i've got 2 more weekends to do so. I am not saying i am negleccting the family but... i know what i mean.... hehehe..

Working life is hectic. I admit. The day ended with me feeling that my both legs are folding up into 4 pieces. exagerrating but it's true. No one will believe unless you go try it yourselves. THis is where i appreciate hubba fetching me, especially when i am on afternoon shift and the next day i am on morning. Sigh! I miss him more and more!

I wanna and i need to get a licence. I wanna and i need to drive myself to work. I cant imagine staying in sembawang and working morning. No train service yet. HOw? Can teach me? aiyo!!!!!

The family is so so so united!

2006-04-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

Daddy sounded all the 5 siblings to make use of the home back in the hometown. And so, instead of preserving that place and collecting dust, we decided and came up with a super wonderful and achievable idea! hehhe.

The 5 siblings sat down for meeting. I am all excited! i cant wait. It's my dream! hehhe..

For those in my tut class, remember what i answered when we were asked for our ideal job?????????? Yeah it is.! hehehhe

It's thursday!

2006-04-06T18:34:00.000+08:00

And i am already so happy!! hehehe.. cos friday is just tomo and i can smell it coming nearer and nearer.

Weekends will be spent doing waht i need to do. already got a few stuff listed. hmm.. let's see..

1. Curtain lady called and said curtain is ready. so i need to go down and collect it together with hubba's parents. let's hope it is really nice. hhehe..i am excited!

2. My 4th aunt bought me a bracelet for the wedding as a gift and she wants me to put it on to make sure that the length is alright. so i'll drop by her house on either sat or sun.

3. Dinner on a waiting list with my secondary school mates. hehee hopefully to catch up with them. feel really bad to turn them down time and time again during gathering.

4. Viewing of my evening gown.

5. Shopping trips with my siblings to buy my bro and eldest sis presents.

6. Sourcing for materials to make my niece gown.

7. And to study for the re-test on the IV med and calculations that i flunk on the first try hhehehe.

Work is fine today. just that there was this peak hours where there are tonnes of case files to handle. Was very pissed of with one of the registrar. It's as though we are his secretary, he is like ordering his steps to us. I dont give a heck. Every single thing he asked without putting in an effort to at least settle some himself. This type of ppl dont deserve help.

I recently feel super fortunate. Cos i can really feel how much everyone around me love me. HUbba, my mum and dad, hubba's mum and dad, my aunt especially my 4th aunt, my friends, my siblings and all. All these ppl make my life. I feel so happy. I must be appreciative. i love them as well. from the bottom of my heart.

i need to nap. miss hubba!

It's for hubba and only one hubba..

2006-04-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

And so, hubba left last night. And so, i sent him off to the airport. And so, i was quite shocked to see a big group of people gathering there. And so, i was slightly assured when i knew that thw whole group is going on one mission. And so, this is my 5th and so. hahaha. (not that i am on high mood when hubba is not around. It sucks bigg ass time to be lonely.)

I've decided ever since hubba left, to constantly update and write whenever time permits. At least it'll keep hubba updated especially when he is not around and that he needs to know how am i. hhehe. Long distance call costs a big bomb when he has to report to 2 people in one day. And smses also need to b cut down. I dont want hiss dad to get a big shock when the bill comes next month though it's expected. see! i am so considerate.

Hubba managed to call back twice today. once in the morning and another time was at night when i was on the way back from work. when i got the morning call, tears rolled down cos i really miss hubba so much.but now, i got used to it. I just want time to pass fast fast cos when hubba is coming back, it symbolises my attachment is ending soon!!!! i am so looking forawrd to the 2 motnhs break following that.

work is fine today. rather free i dare to say. yesterday my work was so busy, i got a hard time coping and planning. my another mates, radin, was free yesterday. but today, she was so busy. hehe. so it's like taking turns. tomo i'll be attach to the ward clerk for thursday and fri! i hope it wont be super boring and there's tonnes of things to do. reporting at work at 8.30am. ending at 4.30. but one thing for sure. i'll go back on time tomo. hehe. had yong tau foo for dinner and drank lots of water. so hubba, if you get to read this, dont worry cos i am a good girl.

i am dead tired cos i walked like miles in the ward today. cos the needs to walked up and down to get all stuff needed. Wah! killer! Thank god tomo is thursday and it means friday is round the corner. I cant wait! i need a break. shopping trip with the siblings this weekend. i hope it'll be a fruitful trip. hehe. long time didnt shop. i need to pleasurize myself by splurging. haha.

good night everyone. hubba said food at taiwan sucks. hubba said life at taiwan very slow pacing. hubba said he is frequently bored. Hopefully things get started and run smoothly. at least when he is busy, that boy will be very into his work. and he wont have time to think about all those. bear with it dear. 19 and 1/2 more days to go. but at least you get to sit in business class. ehhe (^@^)

I WANT EVERYDAY TO BE A WONDERFUL DAY. I WANT EVERYDAY START OF THE DAY TO BE A HAPPY DAY AND EVERY END OFTHE DAY TO BE AN EXCELLENT DAY.

2006-04-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

I WANT ALL PPL AROUND ME TO BE HAPPY. I WANT HAPPINESS TO FILL MY LIFE. AND ALSO THE LIFE OF MY LOVE ONES. I WANT EVERYDAY TO BE A WONDERFUL DAY.

I MUST BE POSITVE!

2006-04-03T18:32:00.000+08:00

I failed my supposedly-must-pass IV medications test. As expected the moment i see the question paper i should say. The side effects of the so many drugs and only one or two drugs is tested make he whole thing like so impossible to digest. Nah! i'll throw away the thought of the impossibility cos everything is possible. And i wont wanna disappoint hubba, most importantly, dont wanna disappoint myself.

First day of work for the second week of PRCP was not too bad. It was lecture the whole time and it's really sedating my brain cells. Though as much as i miss school, this kinda lecture is a no-no-no. And when i think about school, i miss my gang again. That bunch of cliques definitely store lots of memories in my mind and my life. It's like siblings-kinda-friends. I dont know how to put it. But you guys know, aren't you?I hope you all are doing well and great for the PRCP!!! And if time permits, we sure must meet up regularly to update each other man!

Actually, i was rather strong for the past few days about hubba's not going to be ard for the next 3 weeks. I thought i can be strong. But as the days got nearer to the departure night, i strongly feel so fragile and so not wanting him to go. So contradicting, when i told him to go and enjoy himself, yet i feel like telling him to find excuses to stay behind. BUt i know i cant do that. I need to give him my true support. And i really mean it for hubba to go and enjoy. No matter how, please take care, dont forget your meals though you dont like to eat the food, and be more hygienic so you wont develop rashes and of course call me everyday yeah? Honey'll wait for hubba to come back! Muacks!

Now i truly understand how heavy the heart can get when it comes to parting. So i really salute syasya and kheng. This two friends of mine are very successfully in their long distance relationship. You rule girls!

Now, i am counting down to the last day of attachment and the start of my 2 months break before finally the official working life. 21 more days to go! I can do it!!!!! so do everyone.

I need to surf around.

Mixer kinda feeling..

2006-04-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

Attachment was great at onco ward except for the human working with me. The staff and sister were helpful. But i definitely miss my usual cliques. So jealous of syasya and faezah, only both of them working together and it's like so old school. GOd! i miss that kinda life working with them. My attachment human is so not of the right antena as me. But it's okie, i am learning to get use to it.

An IV dilution and calculation and drop factor and drugs effect on monday. I so not looking forward to it. cos no matter how confident i've on the answer, 70% seem to be wrong. AAargh! Heck! I've tonnes of things to do. I hope with the super last minute effort i am going to put in, i can pass. And the expectation is like sitting for basic or advance theory test. I cant score less than 75%. Or is it 70% i forgot. but either matter, out of 30 questions, i have to answer at least 21 correct. Pray for me man.

Finally me and hubba got our asses moving, we bought the color of paint we wanted for one side of the wall. At least, we are more concern on the wall that is going to be used to the LCD tv in mid-april when hubba was away from in taiwan. The fan was shifted higher to allow more allowance for the tv. I hope it fits nicely and not too low. The color turn out to be such a sweet color, i fell in love with it. hehee. Maybe if i am not so lazy, i'll take a pic and put it up!? but i dont know how....

Off we went to have a sumptious dinner at Alexandra hawker. Then we headed to Joo Chiat and finally, we settled on our curtain. I didnt know curtain colour also so hard to find. Wah lao. i nearly gave up and wanted to come back another day. Luckily hubba's mum managed to come out witha very good combination of colour. hehe and the curtain has got 2 layers, as what i always wanted. The ideal plan for tonight was to buy curtain and buy light. But time constraint. so we only settle one. never mind, still got time. hehhe.

3 more days, hubba will be away for 3 weeks. i am trying not to think about it. but it's okie. when hubba's coming back means my attachment is ending as well. I want hubba to enjoy the trip and give yourselves a break yeah. once hubba's back, we got lots of more things to do! hehee. so relax and enjoy!!!! honey'll be fine. no worries! just make sure you call everyday!

i am tired. i wanna sleep. i wanna pass and clear my PRCP! i hope i can solve all problems and i can be strong. Good night everyone.

P/s: My mum went back to indo. I miss her. Good news, she is coming back tomo! yoohoo!!!

One down!

2006-03-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah that's right! ONe down, 2 more to go. And i am determine.

OH ya, the feeling of buying N70 with 1000 dollars note is so cool. TOO bad it was not for me. Chey! never mind. I still love my dad and mum to the core. haha.

I need more sleep. GOod night everyone.

Too much doses of napping..

2006-03-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning feeling very sick. So i nap like so many times okie! hehee.. I tried to bath using cold water to stay awake. And the left eye is not helping as well. Constant blurring and seeing worms is so irritating. BUt towards the evening i was feeling much better. But by then i was feeding myself too much of napping already. I was slacking and chit chatting with mum the whole time. I know i am going to miss yacking with her. *bitter sweet smile*

Hubba's coming to visit me and drove me to get 4 big heavy watermelons was the remedy to the sudden stop of sore throat and body aching. Of course coupling with mum's effort to boil green bean soup and barley drink as well as the constant reminder to take med. I can see how worried she got. MAybe cos i was sick at the worng time. But i really wanna recover!

As promised to hubba i was supposed to sleep at 11 so that i've sufficient rest. BUt i just cant sleep. No matter how i roll around in bed, i cant. I just cant. and i realized i';ve to do something then can fall asleep. So here i am. Bloggin at such an unsual timing haha. 12.32am. I am supposed to be at dreamy land.

I was reading jacq's blog beofre this update. I just dont understand how some 'close relatives' are being so super old-fashioned. Especially when they claimed to be your close kinship. It's like time and time again her emotional aspect is always being ignored. I mean you should understand a person better when you see her grow. I jus dont like it and i feel so unfair for her. As a friend, i've no right to comment or whatsoever. However, when one good intention person got misunderstood or beign compared, it's jus not right. Jacq, be positive! i know for sure, It's jus a matter of time ppl will be looking at the other side of her good points. How sad, those ppl are so blinded by other characteristics. Dont give up girl. I know you will pull thru this waves just like who you manage on the past few occassions. You have such a supportive and loving bf. Jus ignore all remarks and dont be greatly affected by them. You are who you are. LIke i said, if this guy is going to be your future, what most important is he love you, dote on you, and faithful to you. What other said dont matter. Believe your own judgement and dont let others cover that. Ignore those ppl that dont share the same thoughts as you. No point convincing all. COs it's your life. And you should be happy!

I sounded and must be overly reacted. Cos i dont like ppl close to me being sad, being 'bullied' in this way. Especially when it comes to supposedly happy matter.

Good night everyone. Sleep tight.

ITchy throat..

2006-03-15T19:42:00.000+08:00

Since this morning i was feeling very stucky over at the throat. They dont seem to be well and so i dont feel good. hmm.. worse still i need to recite my notes to understand them and now i cant do it cos it sends down tickles to the throat and once they vibrate to hard, i'll gag. Yucks! being sick during exam is really not a good thing! hope after a good sleep tonight then it'll be okie.

Yesterday was such a nice day! as though we got no exam coming up, we dragged ourselves to faezah's house to try out her baju kurung for the upcoming lianna's wedding. We were so relax, we ate mac breakfast before we went over and played with her nephew and of course do what we planned to do. We try try here throw throw there before only brenda can squeeze into her clothes.

School was boring as usual. Maybe it was the consolidation of the most difficult module of the sem. God, cocme to think of it, this could be my most slackiest sem! Muahaha. but what my sis said was true, final sem, sure no mood! i support her thoughts!

The kuku gang then hailed down taxi to go for the long-await-super-yummy-mee-soto-syasya's mum-prepare! The only negatvie stuff was hafiz cant join us! sad. the bee hoon soto was so superb, i kept silence enjoying the every mouthful of the meal. I wished i was fed with that everyday. Maybe then i'll grow more tonnes into my already super heavy weight. the perkedil(i dont know i spell correct or not) was so yummy and fresh!!! aiyo! i ate like 4 of it! haha how embarassing we looked when we first reached her house and her mum and sis was still preparing. And oh ya the ever so yummy chilli! wah piang. this is so respondent conditioning. but all objects seem to be the neutral stimulus and i salivate! except that my appetite today was not very good!and waht makes it more enjoyable was the old school card game, donkey and happy family! and also the regular chosen game of police and thief! i like!

JUst wanna share. I;ve an ultra cute nephew name mavrix. he is 5 years old now. and so he was allowed to answer phone call after the past incidence of him calling up 999 to the police haha. TOday, an insurance agent called. he was looking for my mum. SO when my nephew answered this is what happen. M for mavrix and A for the agent.

M: hello, who are you looking for?

A: Can i speak to miss kho please?

M:HUh? are you looking for my youngest aunt jeny? You her friend ah?

A: No no no. I am lookin for Miss Kho. May i know who am i speaking to?

M: My name is mavrix. My youngest aunt not at home now. My second aunt also not home. Now only got my grandma and my third aunt. Why dont you be my third aunt friend?

A: (I dont know what he said but sure he confused one) Hmm.. never mind, i am looking for miss kho.

M: But my third aunt bathing now. (Yes i was in the loo) She cant talk to you.

Then i shouted i'll answer, in my mind i still dont know who he was speaking to. So cant you imagine when i took over and i got the shocked and i actually burst out laughing in the toilet with echo. hahhahaha! i just cant stand him.

anyway, my show started. everyone is reminding me to watch. tata.

P/s: i miss hubba!And he is going to throw me in sg soon. Go la. go enjoy yourselves. hiks hiks..

Study study study!

2006-03-13T15:38:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday night i said i wanna study, i did but i flipped thru.

Last Friday night i said i wanna study, i didnt cos i was out for dinner.

Last whole of saturday i said i wanna study, but i was out at IT fair and marina and i flipped thru when i reached home before i started my beating of slimes and mushrooms and snails in maple.

Yesterday i was supposed to sit down and study, i decided i still have a bit of time and so off i go to IT fair again before heading to beach room and then jurong point and then holland v before hubba dropped me at the doorstep.

And right now, when i am supposed to buck my ass up, i am sitting right here in front of the comp. HOw promise breaker i am. How lousy and low determination. I can do it! No! I must do it.

Shit i simple dont like the feeling of burying myself with books. Come on, i got better things to do right? But for the sake of my rice bowl, i've to study hard. Exam exam go away. Come again another day. Little children want to play. Exam exam go away!! haha ^__^

I drew up a wishlist. FInally! hehee. at least all peeps can know what i want. With many things in mind, i jus write down those i want it for now. Cos it's not fair. If i'm to write down all, i might feel very discouraged. heehee. Nonsense.

LAst day of school on friday was very very very sad. The occasion flow of sadness , i dont know. i jsut wished things could be like that forever. But on the other side, i know for sure all of us wanna move on. all of us wanna pass out as a registered nurse. like for me, perhaps after 3 years i might enroll myself into a total new course. of course that has to be after hubba graduates. i hope he gets into NUS full time. So that we are only nearby. ME at NUH and HE at NUS. hehehe how cool!

The justice of peace(jop) was decided today. it'll be on the same day 12noon. so now, schedule need to be amended to suit all. Jus await my dad confirmation to whether or not tea ceremony at the hotel. Weird mindset produced weird ideas. Traditional ceremony. Many things to do. Period.

i go study now. i need to. really. pray for me.

Lesson learnt from hubba: Be practical. Where is my wallet? haahha

Planning...

2006-03-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

Right. The title said it all. Lots of planning. And the news is, i am lousy at it. Sigh! Jus like this moment of time, i am planning whether to go bugis or not. I received my 1st wedding invitation card and i have to hunt for a suitable set of clothes to wear. hubba was saying i definitely need to revamp the cupboard for a more presentable lot of clothes. maybe i'll do that when i move in to his place. Ha!

While on the road yesterday night in the bumpy, hubba and i shared our ideal plan for the upcoming wedding. I was called kanchiong spider by hubba for whatever reasons he gave me. Bah! Kanchiong for the good reason okay? If not for me, now we only settle on the wedding date. Blea! *show you my big fat tongue* While on MSN the other day, i actually listed the things we need to do.

1. Wedding bands.

2. Photographer or -s.

3. Justice of peace (solemnizer).

4. Bestmen and women.

5. Deco for the ballroom.

6. Menu tasting.

7. Seating arrangement.

8. Guest lists.

9. Invitation cards.

10. Photoshoot.

11. Room deco.

12. Furnitures.

13. Mummy-s.

14. Daddy-s.

15. My gowns.

16. Many other smaller details and all the customary procedures.

And all these sums up to a lot of time to find the ideal one. Gowns are in the midst of some amendment. The lace designs were not of my taste. Thus i got it change. The designer sure is very irritated by me haha. but it's my one in the life time thing, i want it to be nice and proper. I should be reasonable right?

HUbba was arguing that alot of matters can settle once he is back from his 'mission' trip with the NS ppl to taiwan. And he insisted to focus on my gowns before we proceed to the next. I was trying to argue that those we can settle we settle them first. SO hubba said, we are going to print the invitation card and mail them now since that's what i think! hahaha. i nearly laughed till me tongue fall out. His mum was there and we all laughed. HUbba always give this type of example when he thinks my idea is wrong. and we ended up giggling away. ahha.

I did my final presentation yesterday. Jacq got a very good idea to shot our whole presentation with her cam. And so, it was my first time viewing myself standing in front of the class looking rather uptight and serious, another side of me! 2 presentations in of 2 days. It was a relieved. Everything went on well. and i knew i am going to miss working with these group of ppl. Some of them i say. heheh.

Uncertainty...

2006-03-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

Woke up for the past few days feeling extremely agitated due the thoughts of many unsettled chores. Bah! It has been long since i last felt that i have been sleeping rather peacefully through out the night. And that made me feel old and i dont like it. Chores seemed piling up without me realizing and i definitely dont have very good solutions to solve them all.

Exam timetable was released on monday. Last exam for the whole course, i dont feel excited at all. instead, pinches of sadness whenever i think about it. I will miss the kuku gang for sure. Thanks to you guys who painted such a nice drawing and memory for my early adulthood. Working life will be different. It's between i like or i hate it. But i will learn to do it my best. cos since that's the line i chose to walk 3 years back. how time flies eh?

I really wanna enjoy the coming weekend. More necesary to enjoy before i start to bury myself with the notes start from this week. i know it's kinda last minute. time management definitely come in handy at this point of time haha!

Attachment at the IMH enlighten me alot. My perspective of the place change from A to Z. i was wrong all along to make unfair judgement regarding the place, the ppl there and the illness there. I was so sad on the last day but for the right reason (Haha! not nonsensical reason). i really love working there and enjoyed my 2 weeks there. the staff was good. the patients were interesting and nice and they are not craazy. it's just that they've emotional problems in many aspects. and all these problem have to be corrected. the bad thing abt working there was that the journey was a killer. But thanks to hubba's dad who never fail to drive me every morning to meet up with my mates and also to hubba who'll fetch me from work when i was on afternoon shifts. And also to hubba's mum who'll prepare my lunch box cos the canteen closed too early. and also my mum, who constantly remind me to not be late and also prepare my meal when i was from home! i feel so loved everytime. hehehe

To hubba (bank bank bank hahhhahaha): Can you tell me why do you need me so muuch? ;-)

Hmmm..

2006-02-12T11:39:00.000+08:00

My heart jerk when i read all my best pals blog. Everyone mentioned about graduating and not able to meet each other anymore. I kinda feel sad when i think abt it. Cos i know it's hard to get everyone together again especially when we are in nursing line, schedules and shift works make it very unpredictable.

Syasya mentioned that since i am getting married, i'll priotize my name in the way, i might not have time for my friends. I dare not say that i'll not priotize but i am assured, it'll not be this way.

Jacq wrote a super nice quote. For a laser mouth like her, able to write like this, means all must be appreciative!! hehehhe. Thank you friend, you guys gave my 3 years in poly, totally a different experience. If not for you all, it's just another 3 years! i dont know. I LOVE YOU ALL~!

I love my MUMMY!!!!

2006-02-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

I love my mum so so so much! So much so that in my next life i wanna be her daughter again. She is jus so wonderful! Everything abt her. She is the first one i find when i wake up in the morning. She is the one i call when i need anything. She is the one i confide when i am face with prob. She is the one i lvoe most and most dearie all my life. She is the one that always constantly reminding me to behave the right way. I love you mum. SOrry for the past mistakes i made. I should have realized how much you love me but instead i chose to ignore the facts but reacted sensitively to the negative side. I promised to change and be good since then. I know at time you still have to face my temperamental. I Love my mum!!!!!!!!

P/S: To mum, though i know you wont be reading this, i'll always remember what you are always trying to register recently. I know soon i'll have 2 mums. dont worry! I'll be good! Muacks mum!You are the best!!!!!!

I am so

2006-02-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

Right now i am experiencing a mixture of feelings. Good + Bad = Not so good. hmmm.

Past few days have been rather slow and boring. Slow as how time past. but time flies. contradict right? Nonsense. The past few days was spent skipping lectures and tutorials to study for today's test. it was tough but it was a relieved.

Hubba was being such a sweet old man today. i was greeted with home cooked dinner that he protected through out the journey from home to school. He kept asking, "HUngry? (i replied no!) Huh? how can not hungry one? can say yes?" sensing something was not right, i said yes. hehe and so he dig dig dig abit under his seat and Tada! it was a box of rice with a piece of fish, vege, you tiao, and egg. and it was just the right serving for me. I was so touched. TO both mum and hubba! he jus know how to make my day (^__^) thank you hubba! i know what to do to compensate for today promise! i promise!

Have been having the habit of sleeping late recently. i need to cultivate healthy lifestyle by sleepin early. cos melatonin produce at abt 2400 hrs. hehe.

good night everyone. though i am still feeling knotty now. but i simply dont know how to put them into words. Maybe i'll just share it with hubba?

P/S: oh ya, i cant wait for my next shopping trips. Cos if i am not wrong it's with my second sis. Yippee! Yoohooooo!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe i'll get my youngest to go! Like powerpuff girls! ehhehe..

hmm..

2006-02-01T16:27:00.000+08:00

i am not feeling very happy. maybe cos of post holiday blues. new year is like kinda over. school starts again. why cant i be spared from all the work? staying at home with piles of notes in front of me, not a good enjoyable feeling. hubba is back to work. and i dont look forward to the 2 more weeks upcoming attachment at IMH. i dont know. perhaps the feeling of going to start work haven register yet in my mind. i wanna always have holiday.

recently something and some behaviour in some ppl have sets me thinking abt life. no name mention but somehow i feel a bit like not facing when facing such ppl. it's kinda stressful in the sense who are always anticipating the mood change in these ppl. i dont know, i maybe too sensitive but i know what i am thinking. bah! i am trying not to be affected by it.

i am going to miss my mum alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy CHinese New Year...

2006-01-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

Here i am sitting in front of the com on the second day of CNY means we are running out of gambling kakis and also running out of places to go. Sad thing is that most of my relatives is over at indo and so that sums up the amt of places i can visit each year. Despite all that, of course gambling has proved to be a good way of earning money especially during this period. and i am satisfied with the amt i won! Yippeee!!

2 days ago i sat down in front of the steamy steamboat mum has always prepared over the past 20 years of my life. I didn't make it for hubba's side reunion dinner due the time clash problem. This year mark the last year of me eating reunion family lunch as a 'LIM'. i somehow felt sad yet sweet. Sad cos i've a wonderful family. the knit and ties we've is different. perhaps we are brought up in a very traditional manner. where we are constantly reminded of everyone's presence. Sweet cos i've got sweet memories to register in my mind.

but silly me to feel that way. cos next year i'll probably sit down in the same table with the same ppl but of course diffferent status. but the feeling of love will always be the same. it will always be.

alright! hubba is making noise. we are going to mustafa(yes mustafa! during CNY what you expect!) haha to get charger for my 'new' camera! ta ta

Happy chinese new year to everyone. may the year be bless with luck, happiness, harmony, peace, love, everything!

HOW how how..

2006-01-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

How ridiculous the weather can get, with the intervals of shine and then rain. i am sick of these kinda weather. maybe abit of sun and alot of wind? that'll be perrrrfect! the rain had spoil many times of my plan to visit chinatown for the second time this year. aanyway, hubba dislikes the crowd and so, i dont know, i'll drag him along.. haha.

was out shopping since friday? saturday was my shopping day and sunday was hubba shopping day. Wow! i so wanted so many stuff! perfumes, belt, bags, shoes, heels, dresses, tops, wallet, hair ties, shirt, panties, pants, skirts many! but i cant simply get them all right? the cupboard looks so overflow!

skipping school is simply not healthy. cos it makes me feel super guilty. i think i need to start taking study serious. but actually quite good. cos i've been like trying to complete my assignments. hmm.. i am blabbering nonsense. ignore this post. cos i am bored.

miss hubba..

i need more clothes!!!

2006-01-19T16:27:00.000+08:00

CNY is round the corner and yet i haven found anythign suitable to wear despite all the free time spent on shopping trips. But still i found nothing. and it's getting nearer. i think perhaps i might ended up wearing casual. hmm..

shopping with hubba yesterady was great(close eyes on some small little tiffs we encountered). it has been long since we last do whole day shopping. perhaps hubba needs to have motive to shop. but i am determine to change that mindset. who ask him to choose one that like shopping more than anything? haha.

the clock reads 4.29 pm now and i am in school is something unusual. evening lecture is so so boring. but i's skipped the morning 2, i cant skip again.

oh ya! a big thank you to hubba who has been real sweet at times. thank you for the watch on our 43rd month anniversary. sorry honey didnt have time to shop for some stuff for you. in time to come yeah? hehe. love the watch to bits and stop doubting and thinking i dont like it. Muacks!

i visited chinatown on tuesday night and i still cant get enough of it. i'll visit it on sat again with hubba and family. that's the only place to make me feel excited. i want i want!

off i go to maybe get a drink before lesson starts! bye bye

oh ya oh ya oh ya...

2006-01-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

ehehe mummy also got herself 2 i.s tops. it's only rightful for her to buy so many clothes for herself as mummy seldom shop.

long live to mummy who spent nearly 600 bucks on single outings with us. we are definitely a bunch of wonderful and well-fed leeches. haha.

long live also to daddy, who work super hard just to give us a good life. though he is always not with us most of the time, he is always close to our hearts.

double post for today. this shows i am happy. of course happier with hubba ard. cheers!

I had a great day today!

2006-01-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

yes! i felt happy and still feeling happy. though i'll be much happier if hubba can join our outing today. blame it on the what stupid rnage he has got. waste time. bah!

anyway, today i went shopping with mummy, eldest sis, second sis, youngest sis, mavrix and cousin. we had a great time store hunting for suitable items. man we were so dead tired that we dragged our feets towards the end. so funny, but i really enjoyed. seldom of such chance where we got the opportunity to go shopping with all. definitely, this date has been arranged long time ago.

anyway, schedule today was wake up at 8am(when we are supposed to leave at 8am as promised the nigth before haha.) and got ready and took breakfast and left home at abt 9.30 heading towards toa payoh temple. there we prayed and next stop was the chinese physician clinic situated at the central where mummy and youngest sis did their hip 'manipulation and reduction'. Aw!!! thru their sequences of facial expressions, i think they experienced great pain. mummy was calm and bear her pain really well with the occasion of cringing of her forehead. haha. but youungest sis show her pain thru screaming and tears of course. poor girl! haha.

next we head to our appt with auntie carol for mum's and sis' facial treatment. i was coaxed to do facial as well(expected) but i was strong enough to reject the offer, reason being, i'll sure kena the sun! haha. anyway, not much time spent there as they did only peeling. so shopping started from then on.

we shopped and shopped. at isetan, ck tang, all the rows of shops along anywhere possible. stop to eat only at food republic. and the shopped again at heeren and then dinner at cuppage there. with all the shopping bags, we were very fortunate to have my big size cousin with us, who relented but no choice and carried our goods. haha. we are definitely bigger bully than him.

sad to say, i bought nothing for myself. but i enjoyed picking clothes for the rest to try and giving my opinions. hehe. i was just hunting for a dress. it has been long since the last time i wore one. it has been a 2 pieces kinda routine for many years. time to change the style. but i jus intend to get one first. in case, i dislike the idea of being super feminine. haha.

our prizes today include(in sequence); mummy's calvin klein knit top. second sis' calvin klein sweater. youngest sis' pink pants from joop. youngest sis' top from joop. youngest sis' flower skirt from joop. youngest sis' jeans jacket from the box. cousin's long sleeves top from topshop. cousin's nike shoes from vault heeren. second sis' dress from a local designer, individual expression. sony earphone for youngest sis. hair dye for mum. 2 umbrellas. i think like that's all. like quite little but the amt of paper bags, alot. weird huh?

anyway eldest sis left us half way cos the nephew little cutie mavrix was being too demanding. so the mum cant take it and dragged him home. haha. cute boy!

poor hubba is still outfield right now. perhaps cos he is not ard then i am not sure what to really buy. though mum and second sis opinions have been really genuine. anyway, hope he get the marksmanship and the 200 bucks extra can be my shopping fund. haha.

apologise goes to the secondary folks. sorry i cant meet you guys time and time again. it always when the guys planned outings and i've got some things to do. sorry folks. will make up when the time comes. happy birthday to shu zhen if she is reading this. i hope you guys had a great celebration and a great time of each other companion. see you guys soon!

good night everyone! good night hubba!

Rain rain go away!!!

2006-01-12T12:06:00.000+08:00

Sitting in the school super freezing com lab with a super sleepy eyes really doesnot help alot. I decided to go home! home sweet home! haha. has been running up and down left and right to find a not so fully occupied com lab. first it was too crowded then second was got chase out and third was freezing cold! school definitely need more spare com if their yearly intake is increasing. Dumb, go spent money on fish pond that serve no purpose for waht?

got back from thailand few days ago. first experienced is so different from second. this time, i sat tuk tuk and bought more sensible stuff. hehe. shopping with hubba is definitely fun! but it burnt his pocket quite a big hole right dear? heehee..

went to swensen with the kuku gang yesterday! it was funny, yummy, rainy, stuffy and all but conclusion, nice and warm! hehe.. it was for hafiz super belated birthday and we really enjoyed ourselves especially for those who love the cookie and cream ice cream cake. but it's not my cup of tea and so i've got to settle for a skewer of sotong ball after meeting up with hubba at the mrt station.

weekend is going to be spring cleaning day and also karong guni day. mum has make it a point to announce the notice everyday since last month! haha. i wonder who really jot it down on their planner. not me of course cos i remembered them by heart. hehe. saturday is going to be a shopping day with mum! yooho! i am going to pack my cupboard and throw away unwanted clothes, too old clothes, few over size clothes, many too tight clothes, meaning buy more new clothes haha..

i am going to skip school now. 3 hours of lecture continously with lecturers who knock no sense into my brain. i think i go back home and sleep more fruitful. tata!

Hmmm..

2006-01-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

School today was kinda dreading. luckily, the escape to junction 8 with the gang was kinda helpful. hmm.. maybe we should do that often when we are having a more than 3 hours break. i am tired.

I am feeling cranky right now. the money changer actually sort of cheat my money. yesterday the rate was 2485(SGD 100 to baht) and while i was at bishan, i enquired at the money changer there and the rate was 2435. And i proudly declared i got a better deal. I pop by jurong point after school and guess what? the rate was 2425. what's there to be proud of? i shouldn't have. blea! period. hmmph! i rugi 360baht. and that's alot.

off i go to bath now. mum said the weather is cold and i need to bath early before i catch a cold. which is not good since i've to swim to BKK tomo. i am a good girl.

my wedding gowns better turn out to be good. or else, i'm going to ask the studio to make new one. blea! i dont care. or else i am not going to pay up the balance. but i am worried.. why worried ah? it's 9 months away. it's coming! hehe.

I am all excited again...

2006-01-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

I will be joining hubba for the race to swim to BKK and to climb the mountain in what south east asia nonsensical stuff and yes if the weather is good and if i am lucky to meet the bird that can carry me one (i seriously forget the name of that bird. please enlighten me!!!) i'll reach in 2.5 hours time.

if the traffic at BKK is good, i'll reach hotel at 1am? since my race start at 10.40pm. sigh! may the journey be not so tiring one cos i want my saturday in Chatuchak market to be a fruitful one.

what a wonderful first new year present. hehe. and i didnt forsee myself to be visiting BKK this soon. and of course, what should i say, travelling with hubba and the hub's family sure gonna be good! hehe. let's see if i can dig out more better stuff compare to the previous trip.

It's wed and i am at home. not that i am skipping school, but it's holiday on every wed for this sem! yoohoo!

Off i go to pack my notes, my dressing cupboard, my clothes cabinet, and of course my luggage for this friday! :)

01.01.2006

2006-01-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

It's a new year again. 2005 has been a great year and i know 2006 is going to much much better. At least i spent my 2005 with no regrets. ha!

Finally in 3 years, i count down to new year outside. For the past few years, i've always been sick. I still remember last year, i was so breatheless and was runnin high fever. Thanks to hubba for loooking after me, and only watch the fireworks on TV. This year count down was different. We went to marina square+esplanade to catch the firework with 2 of my cousins who are here on a holiday and my youngest sis. Especially my youngest sis, she was so cute and hardworking, she thought we were so tired standing waiting for the event, she actually ran all the way to giant(very long way cos door all locked) to buy newspaper so we can lay it on the floor to prevent dirtying our pants. So sweet of her. Firework was great as usual but i am quite sure, i am kinda bored of the routine and the arrangement of the pattern. anyway got home at 2 am and i can hardly move an inch. i've to crawl to toilet.

2006 is going to mark many milestones in my life.

1. I am turning 21 in the year of 2006.

2. I'll be graduating in 2006.

3. I'll be officially earning my life in 2006.

4. I'll be having not one big family but two gigantic families in 2006.

5. I'll be someone's wife in 2006.

School is starting in 2 days time. I am so not ready cos i want my holiday.

Hubba, so are we going on any holiday? but with JAPAN still on? hehe. ;)

It's finally holiday again..

2005-12-30T16:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Pull thru a month of attachment and finally celebrating my last day. how badly i want it to end. die! next time working, i wonder how i can cope haha. Anyway OT is really not my kinda lifestyle and ANE still can consider. i am excited about the coming new term and also my last term. i better treasure my last half a year in school. ha!

Congratulations to jacq. She finally feel loved! haha. Hope this guy will be her true love! All the best jacq! remember not to do the wrong thing. Now you guys really make me super worried. cos the invitations card next year, have to be in a pair. that means, i have to re arrange the seats and stuff. HOw can? hehee.

Been and back from balai for chrstmas celebration with the whole family. Really spend very wonderful and great time there. Thank god hubba enjoy himself and never bored of the schedule planned! but really, it has been long since i last feel so warmth. the power of family gathering. i hope next year we'll have the same thing.

Tomo'll mark the end of 2005 and also the start of 2006. All the best to everyone. and a new year will bring one more better future.

To hubba: If you are reading this, dont be sian about guard duty tonight. let's enjoy weekends tomo. honey'll see you tomo. I love you muacks! cheer up!