I am back!
I did sign in many times before this post to write something, i swear i really did. But i lost the thoughts of continuing after a few sentences. Perhaps i need to swallow more determination-booster pills. Ha! i'm crazy.
Right! So the wedding was over since 29th Oct. It has been a month plus 6 days. Hubba and i planned the wedding for more than a year and in a day, it's over. Feelings for the day was a mixture of excitement, nervousness, and also happiness with some sadness. early make up, mum's words, grandparents hug, walking down the aisle, greeting my in-law for the first time, hearing hubba sing in front of crowds for once, sisterly love, aunts' support, dad's eye contact, bro and sis-in-law's smile, niece and nephew's questions and determination, friends' attendace, everything, i atill and will deeply remember all my life. 2 things that i still cant get over is, i never get to eat fullerton food except for the morning breakfast and their fruits. The purpose of holding the wedding there was really to try the 6* chef culinary skills! Chey, i wish and hope to get invited there. I heard the feedback was fabulous and this made me even more jealous! But hubba promised to dine in there probably on our 1st year anniversary. I hope it comes true. second thing is the wedding favours. Many said they werent even aware that the silver cocktail stirrer is a gift. Hiks hiks and i forgotten to remind everyone abt it. Hotel however said there wasnt any left over, but we are quite sure, there should be plenty.
Enjoyed the honeymoon to the fullest! we flew off the day after the wedding to taiwan. Touched down and we headed to Xi men ding. everyday routine will be shop and eat and sleep and shop and eat and sleep. Bought many many things. I was lucky, hubba didnt get sick and tired of accompanying me shopping, instead he was more excited and more energetic than me. Ha! we really splurge and buy like we are in need of so many items. Taiwan food is really good! Hot and tasteful and unique! Shopping was way way nicer than sg ones. I will definitely visit again.
I missed home lots during the first 2 weeks of the wedding. Not that now i dont miss, i still do but i am trying to adapt more to not be so clingy to home. But of course i'll miss mum and also my siblings and all the nonsense we did last time. I simply miss the family. Saying this does not mean i dislike my new addition family, but simply, i am learning to accept. And now i am doing good! i learn to be more appreciative. My in-laws are great ppl! Hubba is trying very hard to make me happy, givin in to me, adjusting my lifestyle. but there is some things, i hope hubba you understand! HOney is and already feel being part of the family, just that one will never forget or ignore or lose touch of one origin. i know you are a good hubba!
Oh ya! why the urge to blog?i am on night! I dont like shift work! so tiring! so draining. Hubba'll be working tomo! Jia you jia you jia you! Let's look forward to next year japan trip? I so wanna spend my christmas there! I wanna see snow, i wanna visit japan disneyland and i wanna have red nose! i wanna have the chance to wear wool 'earphone' and i wanna experience what you experience before and i wan your stories to be more real!
Watched Deck The Hall today! Christmas is so nice! This year, the family is planning a bbq! either at home or by the beach! Work is also celebrating. I am excited about my christmas present. Hubba is going to be my santa! hehe. In our room, hang 2 pair of christmas stocking! we are going to be each other secret santa and slot in present in the socks! Yoohoo! This is fun! Hmm.. i will start shopping within this few days, to prevent last min delay!
I am sleepy! I am thinking of napping! but it's illegal! So torturing!
Bye!
Confused, sad, unusual...
So much to say. but i dont know what to say.
Lately have been feeling not being myself. Sianz.. I dont know why. whatever. It doesnt really matter whether i am feeling happy or not since work and home always require me feeling happy and contented. But i jus know there is some loose knots to tie. But which on to tie?
My first official night duty was fun but damn tiring i tell you. I met up with faezah on my first night to jus chill and chat abit. But we were both kinda eating faster than usual as we need to get back to work. haha. but it is damn nice the feeling. Having your buddy around. But i wish for the whole clang of the kuku gang.
For once, i am able to nap from 8 am to 5.30 pm in the day and wake up to eat and to get ready to work. Cool isn't it? The bad thing about nursing is they eat up your personal life. Alot of it. But so far i am enjoying what i am doing.
Tired.
Mentally, physically, psychologically, emotionally, i am so exhausted. Work is getting more and more demanding, at some point i thought i can just roll myself on the floor and dont bother about having to think of what to do next for each patient that i look after. I know it's no big deal for some to look after 7 patients. But for me, sometimes i could hardly breathe. It does not help at all, cos i've been working 5 days of straight afternoon shifts before it's my off day tomo. And sunday i've to go to work and i am on morning then monday i'll be off again.
The only good thing i look forward to when i am on afternoon was and is hubba'll be fetching me after work. If not for the rides, i think sometimes i reach home only after 11pm. Bbbbbrrrrr! so scary even with the thoughts of it. The thing i hate about working afternoon is that, I dont have dinner. My dinner and lunch are combined and i have them at 3pm. By then after work i'll be hungry and i'll look for food. I have been eating supper every night and i think i need to be determine to stop. SO no more supper from now! Nothing!!
Wedding preparation are 70% ready. The only big headache now is the guest list. It's growing and growing each time we do the counting. It's so hard to calculate the exact number and on our side we are trying to confirm guests. But due to the limitation of seats, i'll have to sacrifice and make some changes to my list, hubba's list. Sian! it's so hard to go to the next step without confirmation!!
I am so looking forward to tomorrow cos my legend bed will be here and hubba's going for the first fitting of his suit! Yoohoo! Yippeee!!
I am so sleepy! But i got work to do! Bye peeps!
I miss the kuku gang! ANybody who is most free please go arrange on meeting up session???
I've lost touch of blogger!
Haha! not that serious la huh? only fail to update on a regular basis. you know, no time no time! hehe. i've got lots of other things to do.
Working life has very much taken its plunge to another level. slowly i am getting used to the shift work. so far so good. Family and hubba has been very good in accommodating to my needs and my flexibilities. other than that, i am doing fine! hehe
Wedding preparation has proceeded to many other levels. We painted the whole room(4walls). We demolished the side drawers. We fixed up our chest of drawers. We bought our bed and pillows and bolsters. We cleaned up the whole room. We sent our cards to printer and waiting to collect in end of august. We settled on our so long photos. We got ourselves a professional photographer for the actual day. We contacted one justice of peace. And so little small details left! hehe
I feel sleepy now. Morning shift tomo! Blea!
I've lost touch of blogger!
Haha! not that serious la huh? only fail to update on a regular basis. you know, no time no time! hehe. i've got lots of other things to do.
Working life has very much taken its plunge to another level. slowly i am getting used to the shift work. so far so good. Family and hubba has been very good in accommodating to my needs and my flexibilities. other than that, i am doing fine! hehe
Wedding preparation has proceeded to many other levels. We painted the whole room(4walls). We demolished the side drawers. We fixed up our chest of drawers. We bought our bed and pillows and bolsters. We cleaned up the whole room. We sent our cards to printer and waiting to collect in end of august. We settled on our so long photos. We got ourselves a professional photographer for the actual day. We contacted one justice of peace. And so little small details left! hehe
I feel sleepy now. Morning shift tomo! Blea!
JUST WANNA SAY.....
A BIG HAPPY BDAY TO JENY, my youngest sis, the youngest in the lim's family, the baby of the family, the ever so fortunate one in the family, the slowly turning more and more stylish, the slowly indulging herself in pics of handsome boys,the one who always wrapped herself in comforter even after her alarm went off umpteen times, the one who never fails to soften mum and dad's heart, the one everyone dotes on and gives in to her, the one who gets most of the things she want, the one that is petty over small things when her period is near, the one who eat only selected kinda food only mum knows what, the one who cried when she got nightmare, the one, she is the one and only my youngest sister. LOVE YOU!! You are unique and that makes you special! hehe
May your upcoming future be great and things go smoothly for you! All the best in your studies, all the best in your love life. hehe. Hope your celebration this year is a great one.
Jus some reflections.
1. I finally turn 21 this year.
2. I finally graduated with a dploma.
3. With the diploma, i finally can work.
4. I've a stable job. For at least 3 years.
5. I finally got my first wage. The feeling when receiving it was normal, but i was so looking forward to it.
6. I am getting married in less than 3 months.
7. I am moving house soon.
8. I still cant believe i am in working society. haha.
9. I miss all my kuku mates.
10. I miss alot of my sleeping time.
HAPPY BELATED BDAY NICHOLAS!
Sorry i cant be there on your bbq. I wish i can but you know, nurse has to work on weekends as well. hehe. May you have a great wonderful year ahead. And may you got into the uni course you so wanted and that your NS life will be great. hehe.
It has been nong since i last updated. Words and lifestories seemed to run out a bit. I guess as much as i can, i chose to spend time with the family inclusive of hubba as well. Working as nurse definitely differ from any other jobs. The requirement, the shift-schedule, the-may-not-have-politics, the PR skills, all these has to blend together and look at it positively.
But somehow, i feel fortunate. In the sense, i get 2 days off(but i work longer hours). I've a bunch of young supportive understanding seniors. I've got a great environment for learning. I've got flexible bunch of sisters. I've got freedom and a-say in at least my schedule. And i've a very caring generous, wonderful, excellent family. With these, i am always very thankful, and i make sure i do a good job, i dont disappoint anyone.
Hubba has been superbly sweet. Sparing his sleeping time to have breakie with me at mac on sat morning and sending me to work with train and later going shopping on his own for a short 2 hours. SUnday, i was on morning, he woke up 6.20am to send me to work forgoing his ever so important beauty sleep. After work, i was picked up again, and hubba introduced me to this shop called classic cakes selling layer crepes cream cake but it was sold out. So we ended up indulging ourselves with waffles topped with choco icecream and warm brownie with a scoop of hazelnut haven. YUM!Life is so so candy sweet to have someone, doing something beyond his limit, without s single complain and still doing it more than willing. I love this boy!
I've start to feel like work is getting more and more challenging and meaningful. At least for now, i am coping kinda well. I hope i dont lose this pace, and i'll do my best. At least my aim is to clear my probation and hopefully in 3 months time i can work like one really professional nurse who can handle any challenges with a steady amount of skills, knowledges.
For now, i am going off to bed. I know it's early. But i need many sleep.Tata.
